I'm jealous of FtMs. As strange as it sounds, in my head I feel like FtMs are superior to everyone... I think all the time that I wish I were going FtM than MtF.
For some reason I've always been compelled to want to be female... it's not even that my life as a guy was so bad, it's just that I feel female. I am much happier now as a girl, but I've always wished that since I am trans, I would be going from Female to Male instead of MtF
A few months back I decided to detransition (I eventually stopped and went back to being female), and somebody even asked me if I was just beginning to transition from female to male. It was sorta exciting to hear that, but I explained otherwise. It's just I dislike women (not all, but most of them) so much, that to me it's like why in the world do I want to be one?