Daily meanderings of an SO

[togetherwecan]

The more I talk to Brooke the more I know where this path will lead for her. I am still ok...wow. Who'd've thunk it? certainly not me...

I think everyday about how this is going to affect me and my standing in the political world. I can only believe that God wants me to focus on the LGBT issues politically, to use my strength and connections to help Brooke and everyone here. I can't see another reason to distract me from what I do and this has certainly distracted me. Iwill pledge this...regardless of what happnes with Brooke and I you all will always have me in your corner fighting the fight.

I am not worried about my family and what they will think because, well, I never have worried or cared before so why start now? I am pretty sure my kids will be ok with this when the time is right to talk to them. They know I have a *friend* named Brooke, but that is all they know at this point. I don't see the need in disconcerting them until Brooke decides for sure that I am the one for her and we make concrete plans to be together. I believe that IS what is going to happen. It is just a matter of time.

Lots on my mind tonight...no, not lots...just love...I have never known a love so true as this and all of this is so out of the realm of what most people would ever imagine of me or for me. Days like today I feel a lil lost.

[Melissa]

Oh wow.  I am so happy you are going to stick around.

Melissa

[togetherwecan]

Oh wow.  I am so happy you are going to stick around.

Melissa

Did ya think I wasn't gonna? Wow...no way am I leaving Brooke.

[cindianna_jones]

Na, hang out... want a Diet Coke?  That's all I've got.

Cindi

[SOofaCD]

Not me. I have Amaretto and Sweet and Sour mix in the fridge.  Come on over and I'll mix up a few Amaretto Sour's.

[Kim]

One thing my wife and I have found in our research and all is that it's best to tell the kids as early as possible. They may know it and haven't said anything to you thinking you don't know. Kids are smarter than we think. My kids are 6,5 and 3 and all know who I am and are growing up with it. Surprisingly they adjusted better than we thought they would. I'm glad to meet an SO who is supportive. That made a difference for me having my wife's love and support.
                                         Kim   

[Lucy]

I also wish to say what a truly amazing person you are. I can only hope that when I come out or discuss this with my SO she is as understanding and paitent as yourself.

Your an insperation
Thank You

[togetherwecan]

One thing my wife and I have found in our research and all is that it's best to tell the kids as early as possible. They may know it and haven't said anything to you thinking you don't know. Kids are smarter than we think. My kids are 6,5 and 3 and all know who I am and are growing up with it. Surprisingly they adjusted better than we thought they would. I'm glad to meet an SO who is supportive. That made a difference for me having my wife's love and support.
                                         Kim   

Kim, I totally agree with you, however my kids are much older for one and Brooke and I live on opposite coasts. They have not even met Brooke.

I also wish to say what a truly amazing person you are. I can only hope that when I come out or discuss this with my SO she is as understanding and paitent as yourself.

Your an insperation
Thank You

Thank you very very much. That was really sweet. I find my inspiration in all of you.

If there is anything I can do to help Lucy, please let me know. *hugs*

[Melissa]

Did ya think I wasn't gonna? Wow...no way am I leaving Brooke.

I was referring to this:

Iwill pledge this...regardless of what happnes with Brooke and I you all will always have me in your corner fighting the fight.

Melissa

[togetherwecan]

Did ya think I wasn't gonna? Wow...no way am I leaving Brooke.

I was referring to this:

Iwill pledge this...regardless of what happnes with Brooke and I you all will always have me in your corner fighting the fight.

Melissa

OH! I am not going anywhere Melissa. I love it here! *hugs*


Valentines Day...hmmm, not sure how I felt about it. I mean I wasn't able to be with Brooke with us being on opposite coasts. It sucks, but I didn't feel the distance today more than any other day. I thought about her a lot and kinda took a girly day for myself. I haven't done that in a while. It was kinda nice to pamper myself a bit for a change and enjoy my quiet thoughts on where life has brought me thus far and I even let my mind drift to where it may take me still...

I had a TG discussion on another board today. Most people simply stayed out of the thread, a few participated a little, some joked - but not offensively and one was an ass. It was interesting how little response was given. I suppose that is better than all of them being an ass.

I have been doing little things. I guess kinda setting the stage so to speak for when the time comes that Brooke comes out. Chiseling away at the ice around me in my day to day so as to make for an easier transition for us all. That is kinda what Brooke did with me once our friendship crossed over into a romance-I just didn't know it at the time, but I think it helped when I look back. I hope what I am doing helps as well. It is going to be difficult on one hand and easy I think on another.

I dunno, I just think that love and happiness can reign at the end of the day.

Happy Valentines to all of you from me.







Argh, today really just sucked. I am frustrated. Between weather and technology I haven't been able to talk to Brooke much and I feel disconnected. I have a ton of crap going on and really kinda just need that.

[Lucy]

Argh, today really just sucked. I am frustrated. Between weather and technology I haven't been able to talk to Brooke much and I feel disconnected. I have a ton of crap going on and really kinda just need that.

I'm sorry to here that, I keep intouch with evry one throu my moblie, I e-mail - phone - tex - surf. Ive even been able to post here in susans place from my mobile phone.

I know what you say about today sucks.
I seem to be driffting away from "SO". I really dont want to loose her but when its like this I consider transition more and more.
Shes winning me round to (look after your self forget me) at the moment.
It really breaks my heart.

I'm sure that like you, she will stand by me.  and live happily together, for a while.

Edit: Fixed Quote - Melissa

[togetherwecan]

Neither of us is letting go, it is just between the 3000 mi, the 3 hr time difference, weird work schedules and wild weather we have had very little communication to day.

Neither of us is letting go, it is just between the 3000 mi, the 3 hr time difference, weird work schedules and wild weather we have had very little communication to day.

Fri:
I got to wake to the sound of Brooke's voice this morning. It was awsome, really awesome. I can't wait for the day I get to wake up to her every morning.


It's been awhile since I posted in this thread...I was debating whether I was still an *SO* or not and have decided regardless of romance I am still Brooke's friend and always will be so that would designate me an SO still I think.

Anyhow, our relationship has taken a turn and a half. We decided to take a break from the romantic aspect of our relationship at least for now, but I feel we have come full circle and have somewhat re-routed ourselves and are back where we started. I dunno, lol. It is all very confusing. I am just happy that I get to talk to Brooke nearly everyday and I miss her when we are not able to connect. I miss the idea of thinking about *future* things, but yet have not completely abandoned that thought either.
The feelings I have towards Brooke are almost compelling, like the choice isn't mine...that the choice was made for me and I cannot stop the forward motion however slow, nor can I speed it up.

I don't know what any of this means if anything. I am not looking for answers, I am just going with the flow. It is almost like reading a book, each day is a new chapter and sometimes I feel afraid to turn that page for fear my name might not be in it and sometimes I am anxious to turn the page to get to the good stuff