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okay.. this is not something I considering doing RIGHT now but its annoying me and I felt like shouting it out somewhere.. so I hope its okay^^
okay hers the thing,
in my country we got only 1 hopsital who deals with transgender people. there few other hospitals who can make top surgery, (1-2) and so..
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anyway there is only 1 hospital who got the power for real (and the other hospitals/doctors are playing out of the system.), if you wanna get a new person numbers and so to be male as registered in the sociaty.
to do that you have to:
1, go into the hospital for a talk and get permission (can take around 2 years)
2, get the dignose transexualism and become "mentall ill*" as it is on the list,
3, and gets castrated (only if your 25 or over)
well... I really dont even know if I feel like going thought all this mess, not to mention thats is VERY hard to get permission and most people who do have to lie alot..
in generally this is how I should be if you wanna put up hope for having a permission,
1; "you should be a steriotype guy, (so no coments about my dressing up, or the fact I actually like the colour pink)"
2, "you should be straight, (so no talking about guys, only girls,) and should have no interest in sex before surgery, but not be a virgin ( because you should prove that you really dont like it)"
3,"you should neither have any dignose, or mentall illness or anything, depression isnt good either.."
I already been there once when I where around 14-16 and I had a boyfriend and they knew I where dignosed Asperger because I back then where on a special school for people with dignoses.
beside that I REALLY wouldnt consider myself as a steryotype guy or anything.. and I am a bad lier so it would generally be hard for me, not to mention there not nessesarry friendly there... they really ask you about everything "how much do you mastrubate?" "ever been abused" and stuff and jugde you on these points.
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but looking on the "positive" side
in fact, I can lie myself thought the system, (as so many others do, but only if they havent read me in the news because I been there for a time ago)
I could say the boyfried I had back then really wasnt anything, and my dignose is also pretty messy,
I heard of people getting off there dignose they got as kid and I think I could do that as well since even the people who are at these playes feel im often "to normal" to be there (LOL no will never be)
so yeah if I wait to I turn 23 get my dignose off, play straight, for 2 years, I MIGHT be able to get permission in a age of 25,
then after that I can get castrated (I would anyway) and get a new dignose under "mental disoder" which also mean I probebly never will get kids but well anyway..
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but DAIM, its so complicated, and long, and pitifull.. I dont want to be under a mental disoder list,
neither do I want to go into this psyco hospital, lying about myself, my sexualety and the person I am, I am proud of being me..
and my dignose.. well even if I hate the fact I got jugde on it I am this kind of opression person who somehow want to keep it even if its fake or even if I can get it off, I dont know if I wanna keep it or not, but I dont want to lose it just to prove who I am "normal perfect human being"
yes its really fu** but its the only way to be registered as male, I really dont know what ells to do?,
I thought about moving to another country because maybe it would be more easy, but on the other hand I really love my country on all other ways exept these sick rules about transgender people...
oh my.... -__-
