How do you feel ?

[Kendall]

Broken, exhausted, misunderstood, ready to move on. Ready to move out.

[Shantel]

Broken, exhausted, misunderstood, ready to move on. Ready to move out.

Are you going to be OK?

[Taka]

depressed. it happens every spring, so i'm hardly surprised by it. but the came a month late this year because spring never came in april like it used to do before.

i'll be perfectly ok in a while, but right now i just feel like disintegrating into the earth. i'm so tired right now that even my worries seem insignificant.

[Kendall]

Are you going to be OK?

wife wants a divorce despite me being totally honest up front for 8 years before marriage.

i don't want to stay in mississippi anymore.

not sure where i will go, though i have had offers from family in ct, nd, wa, and co with various limits and environments.

time to move on and start all over again

[Shantel]

wife wants a divorce despite me being totally honest up front for 8 years before marriage.

i don't want to stay in mississippi anymore.

not sure where i will go, though i have had offers from family in ct, nd, wa, and co with various limits and environments.

time to move on and start all over again

Good luck, wish you well!

[hazelspikes]

Moving out of my dorm to go back home with my parents for two months.  Chance to make some money, mostly.  That will turn into comic books, textbooks, and getting a head start at paying off student loans.  Should be an adventure....

Started going to the counseling center to talk about how stressed I get.  Plan on going after summer break.  Of course, when I finally get myself in there, it's the last week of school.  ^^;

[jackofspades]

I've had acid reflux the last day and a half, but I've been eating light and drinking water (but also some coffee). I go from being in a decent mood to worrying about the future, moving and all that stuff. Hoping the itchy burn on my arm is not infected, heh. 

[foosnark]

The new job has been a mixed bag.  I went through a short phase of depression, but now mostly it's confined to sort of a brief "brain itch" most mornings.

My aspiration is to win the lottery and thus early retirement for me and everyone in my family.

[Taka]

i'm feeling pretty good. just learned about metacognitive therapy and started reading more about it. interesting reading, which also makes me realize how blessed i am to not have fallen into one of those pitch black pits that it's so difficult to get out of on your own. i do get stuck some times, like most people, but never so long that it becomes a serious problem.

maybe i should've studied psychology, nothing interests me as much as the human mind. our differences in the way we perceive the world is what makes it so colorful.

[Keira]

I'm pretty much feeling hopeless, since I might never be able to find a doctor to monitor and prescribe a full hrt regimen...

My body issues are starting to get worse, and I'm thinking about just quitting and living my life as drugged up and numb. If they don't care about my well being, why the f*** should I?

[Shantel]

I'm pretty much feeling hopeless, since I might never be able to find a doctor to monitor and prescribe a full hrt regimen...

My body issues are starting to get worse, and I'm thinking about just quitting and living my life as drugged up and numb. If they don't care about my well being, why the f*** should I?

You have had a lot of thoughtful advice from your sisters here, it might be a better plan to consider some of those options rather than lapse into a pool of self pity.

[jackofspades]

I feel anxious and suicidal. Not to bring anyone down.

I do nothing but give, give, give to my friends, and even the most generous friends of mine seem to take me for advantage.

I feel so used up and pathetic.

This isn't the alcohol talking, it's just the reason I started drinking tonight.

You're #1 in your life, as goes for everybody. Help yourself, then help others. Choose friends wisely, and if they don't reciprocate your kindness back off a while and wait for them to come to you. I could have used that same advice a few months ago.

I wish everyone here the best <3 Take care of yourselves

[Adreni]

Aside from frustrations with this website's inner workings (logging me out... GAH!!!)...?

Well, I've been cooped up with no social life for... all my life. Moving to the suburbs changed nothing... very lonely existence, mine.

Recently I finally decided it was time to fix it, so I moved to Fargo, ND from Virginia to live with one of my few good friends. Well... I'm homeless because he needs to drag himself out of his current living situation, so I'm stuck in Fraser's transitional living program, which is a "rainbow" SAFE ZONE, by the way.

I've got a job now, I've got new clothes, I got called in for double interviews at Barnes & Noble (here's hoping they tell me good things when I call today).

I don't even remember all I meant to say, but the bottom line is, I'm finally getting my life together. How do I feel? GOOD.

[Shantel]

Aside from frustrations with this website's inner workings (logging me out... GAH!!!)...?

Well, I've been cooped up with no social life for... all my life. Moving to the suburbs changed nothing... very lonely existence, mine.

Recently I finally decided it was time to fix it, so I moved to Fargo, ND from Virginia to live with one of my few good friends. Well... I'm homeless because he needs to drag himself out of his current living situation, so I'm stuck in Fraser's transitional living program, which is a "rainbow" SAFE ZONE, by the way.

I've got a job now, I've got new clothes, I got called in for double interviews at Barnes & Noble (here's hoping they tell me good things when I call today).

I don't even remember all I meant to say, but the bottom line is, I'm finally getting my life together. How do I feel? GOOD.

Sounds like your luck is getting a lot better, good for you! 

[Adreni]

Sounds like your luck is getting a lot better, good for you! 

Luck is a hope-related concept. Fraser's presence was luck... everything after has been nothing but will. Thank you, either way.

Now let's just "hope" I can find the answer I want here...

[androgynoid]

I am feeling quite nice. Pride was most excellent. Day-drinking is a good time, particularly when the rest of the city is doing it with you.

I was rather nervous about my outfit (a miniskirt), thinking I would just look like a girl in a miniskirt, but no. I was even wearing my goofy sunglasses:



and still passed as a guy, even talking.

I also got slightly sunburned, as you can see.

[brainiac]

Sounds like a good day.

Rant incoming.

I'm feeling kind of shaky, since my (cis) partner of 6 years and I had a tough discussion last night regarding changing labels for my body parts. He's struggled with feeling like he can't ever say no to trying something related to transition (as in, either he HAS to do it or we break up), he feels like anything I want to talk about regarding transition is inevitable and can't be on his terms, like he's a bad partner for not being gung-ho about things I ask for right away, like every step forward is just a step towards me needing to physically transition (which I don't feel like I need to do), for a really long time. But it hasn't come up lately since I haven't brought anything new up. There was a lot of misunderstanding and yelling and tears last night, but ultimately I was able to listen to him and he listened to me, and he was able to talk to me about how he was feeling. We also found a way forward to try things out that didn't feel so scary for him.

So... it went really well at the end, but now I'm scared to bring up anything like going by a nickname or changing pronouns. I'm fine with waiting on those things, but I feel guilty not telling him I'm thinking about that since I feel like I'm hiding something.

[foosnark]

Kind of bummed that my parents won't be coming here for July 4 weekend after all, because of their health (which worries me).  An old friend will be passing through town next week though and it'll be fun to catch up.

I have a FitBit Aria scale which automatically logs your weight over wifi, and had been letting it sit idle for months.  Last weekend I put fresh batteries i n it and discovered I'd gained enough wait in the meantime that it doesn't recognize me anymore.  Grrr.  I partially blame stress from the new job, but mostly I've just dropped any semblance of discipline.  Annoyed to find out how quickly I manage to gain weight though if I'm not focusing on it.  I was on a long plateau before that.  Sigh.

[Cas]

positive.

+ It's payday, I can stop eating noodles and cereal now. =D
+ Tomorrow night is the LGBTQ night at the bar in town which is pretty much the only time I can be out and fully OUT.
+ I discovered this forum! whee!

[Cas]

double poooost.


broke my dominant arm on monday. siiiiigh.
funny thing is I fell over and hit it, it felt ok, so I carried on digging in the garden, then played xbox for a couple hours...
then realised it was hurting a bit more than expected so I went to the hospital.

In a sling now. can't drive. struggling to do everything left-handed. so frustrating.