When I feel that way Jaden I tend to try new things. Sometimes it helps...sometimes it makes it worse...but it seems to get the energy moving either way. Dislodge those icky feelings and make them move. Vibrate those molecules.
This could include binding and putting on a masculine shirt...it could include taking mascara to my facial hair to make it stand out...or going the total other direction and doing pretty/girly make up or nails, or toe nails. Putting on a dress when I very rarely wear such things...
Normally such "play" (if you could even really call it that...therapy? I don't know.) lasts for all of 15mins...sometimes a bit longer. It really only serves to shake out the feeling.
I feel like it's a way of asking the GID (as if it were some energy or entity in itself...I know...sometimes I sound bonkers. It works for me though...) "is it this? Is this the issue? Talk to me or I'm going to keep guessing!!!!" and it tends to shake out an answer. Or sometimes...things just settle, and no "answer" was needed.
*hugs*
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Edit to say: *doh!* I didn't notice that there was a whole 'nother page I hadn't seen before I responded! My bad....
Julian I'm so sorry to hear that your GID has reared up so badly.
Try to do something less harmful...I've found that if I'm really feeling like cutting...taking a sharpie to my skin instead has a relieving effect...it's not the same, and I know that but it does (sometimes...) alleviate the feelings enough until I can manage them. *huge hugs*
