How do you feel ?

[ativan]

Balancing on the edge of insanity, just another day in my life.

Ativan

[Sevan]

Balancing on the edge of insanity, just another day in my life.

Ativan

*hugs* Thankfully...this doesn't last long love. Hang in there.

[ativan]

I've been here before. I kind of like the surealism of it all. I got backed into by a car not once, but twice in the parking lot of my therapist, yesterday.
I just got up, I feel like I've been in a car accident. Vicodin will fix that, and I get to feel stupid instead  .

Ativan

[mimpi]

Crying right now, just watched "Libertarias" a film about the Mujeres Libres movement of the Spanish Revolution. Unbelievably good film but it hits all the buttons that get to me emotionally. So sad what happened to those good and brave people.

[Julian]

Sleepy. When I'm sleepy, every light and noise overstimulates me.

[foosnark]

Stressed out a bit -- I want to put some things on pause.  Politically angry.  Back's sore.  Work's annoying.  Not real thrilled with what I'm doing for tomorrow's show.  Not real thrilled with having to deal with all these Japanese visitors who we have to cater to literally and figuratively.  Not wanting to do multiple parties with them this weekend.  But oddly in a better mood than I might expect... like none of the annoyances really matter and life is still pretty neat.

[ativan]

Like sitting on the front steps, throwing rocks and yelling "Get the Hell outa my yard". I guess I should spike my hair for effect, and wear a ratty old bathrobe and boxer shorts. Ooh, beer would be good to.

Ativan

[R3i]

nervous, slightly discouraged but determined

[ativan]

Like requesting a ban on animated signatures. They tend to be very annoying, especially to people pron to epileptic seisures.

[mimpi]

Exhausted, been at the Stop the Cuts demonstration for hours and then out drinking with a couple of friends.

[ativan]

Like it's going to have to be a heavely medicated day.
Rapid mania full blown, 0 to 100 in 10 seconds day.
Here we go!

Ativan

[mimpi]

We need to do a swap Ativan, could do with a bit of mania myself right now, you can have a bit of my exhaustion. Should balance out?

[ativan]

my mania comes from a very dark and violent place.
You wouldn't like it.
...Unless you wanted to kill somebody or like that

Ativan

I'm gonna go to the fitness place and rip some muscles, it feels good.

[mimpi]

Good idea, physical exercise usually helps.

[R3i]

i feel funny, not haha funny, weird funny.......

[foosnark]

This morning I felt like I had a n.asty hangover, but I haven't been drinking since Saturday.  Coffee helped.  My guts still feel semi-scrambled and i'd prefer to go home and lie down, but I took a sick day yesterday and don't want to blow through them all yet.

Had an odd weekend.  Great jam session at Friday's party.  Long stressful day Saturday.  We put on a great show though.  I was only in one song and was sent up to the tech booth to advise the lighting guy.  He was kind of a dick, and kept saying it was a one-man show (his).  Nevermind the 40 drummers, half of whom traveled all the way from Japan to play, and months of preparation.  Afterwards I had the usual introvert-at-a-party thing, where it's lonelier than actually being alone, in addition to hearing more Japanese than English all day and being fatigued from not knowing what was going on half the time.  On balance, the stress exceeded the fun by a bit.

[ativan]

Had an odd weekend.

I used to get into stuff like that. When I ran sound, I ran it. Advise was always appreciated, though. It was the same for the light tech. When you know a show, you know it well. It was the musicians that had hell to pay if they went to far away from the show.

I'm recovering from the most muscle shredding work out at the fitness place. It does help to get the wanting to cut down to manageable though.
Be leaving shortly for my 1 1/2 hr ride to town to see my gender Psych. Looking forward to seeing him.
So all in all, I feel wonderful, good, & all those things!
Good days don't come along that often it seems.

Ativan

[mimpi]

Bad day yesterday, counsellor called me an 'outsider' which was well out of order and made very angry. Found out my family had been corrupting law enforcement to hassle me but have been advised to do nothing as it's too dangerous and lastly got paid only 80% of what I was expecting. Have decided to go to Italy for a few days next week to see friends, get away and chill out. Already booked flights. ->-bleeped-<-ing hate this ultra corrupt country that pretends it's the exact opposite. CCTV everywhere and in the meantime the rich are beyond the law.

[ativan]

How was refering to you as an outsider? What was the context of the statement?

I know therapists that work with gender issues, but still can only see binary.
In that sense you would be a gender outlaw, as Laurry put it.

I saw my Psychologist yesterday, It went very well, with all of his references to gender correct for me.

Sorry things have to be so hard for you right now,

Ativan

[ativan]

Like I have to get away from my computer, take my camera as an excuse, and go for a walk.
I received an upsetting email today, I don't know what to think about being here at Susan's.

Ativan