How do you feel ?

[oviabshe]

I'm so tired; I almost fell asleep in my econ class today.  I'm also incredibly frustrated with the way I've been procrastinating so much lately.

[ativan]

Depressed w/low energy. I can't do this anymore kinda feeling, I've been relying on to many anxiety and pain killers and I shouldn't.
But, printing out 12x18 picts on colored construction paper for effect. Boring, have a few that will be good. I haven't tryed the effect before.
I should be smoking something and watching old movies instead. As long as I'm feeling worthless, I might as well be useless.

Ativan

[MarinaM]

Depressed w/low energy. I can't do this anymore kinda feeling, I've been relying on to many anxiety and pain killers and I shouldn't.
But, printing out 12x18 picts on colored construction paper for effect. Boring, have a few that will be good. I haven't tryed the effect before.
I should be smoking something and watching old movies instead. As long as I'm feeling worthless, I might as well be useless.

Ativan

I'm watching Night of the Living Dead as I type.

Just stay busy @ivan, it's zombie time in America, you should pull up an old horror flick.

[ativan]

Took a fairly decent amount of Klonopin and slept a couple hrs.
Ate a really good dinner, and now the agitation part of the Klonopin is like ten cups of coffee with out the jitters.
I feel normal. At last. been a week or so.
Thanks Emma, your thoughts and empathy go a long ways.

Ativan

[Sevan]

Glad to hear you're feeling a bit more regulated Ativan. I'm sorry to hear it was getting bad.

I'm tired and dippy. That's about it. Lol.

[mimpi]

Stressed out and can't sleep. Have a flight in just over three hours and it's over an hour's drive to the airport. Still Sicily awaits me. Bacia la mano, picciotti!

[ativan]

Mimpi! Siamo in attesa di youooooi ...

[MarinaM]

Unrelenting okay-ness.

I was tempted to invade pica's blog and quote john steinbeck, just to see if ( ze?) Would chase me off.

[foosnark]

I could sleep more.  We adopted two dogs Wednesday, and our little terror kitten is in murder mode so we're keeping the cats and dogs separated for now. The cats stayed in our bedroom last night and the little ->-bleeped-<- knocked over my glass of ice water, and spent a fair amount of time doing claws-out tapdancing on my crotch.  Should've just put him in the carrier for the night I think.

[ativan]

I feel satisfied. Had a really good work out. I also feel better about being here at Susans.

Ativan

[ativan]

Now it's a feeling of sadness. I feel it was my fault that Zaida deleted herself.

Ativan

[MarinaM]

Now it's a feeling of sadness. I feel it was my fault that Zaida deleted herself.

Ativan

I take your blame. Perhaps she wasn't satisfied with my answer to her question elsewhere.

[ativan]

We were having problems between us. A couple Emails and just today several personal messages back and forth.
I think we got lost in an emotional translation.
Just leaves me very sad. I haven't felt this sadness before,...It's different for some reason.

Ativan

It's very hard to take, so I took a large dose of anxiety med. I want to sleep.
they woke me up enough to eat, but I havn't any idea what they were taking about.
I'm sorry, but its going to be a drug filled evening with the biggest dose to get me to sleep.
I know why, and yet I don't know a thing. She's just gone and I feel to blame...

[Sevan]

Sometimes....the more we talk....the more we muddle. Most the time additional words add clarity but...not always. I'm quite terrible at knowing when to shut my big ass mouth....

Unrelated...I'm feeling very down. I struggled at work today. First day back after surgery and holy cow...I wasn't ready.

Unrelated to that...my dear friend won't call me. I don't know what's going on and I'm struggling to not take it personally. It's not about me...at least I don't think it's about me...this friend struggles with depression and severe anxiety and I suspect it's about that...and not about me. Still...I find myself making it about me. *sigh*

[mimpi]

Just got back from lovely night out. So happy to be back amongst friends in Italy. Have had enough of UK, don't fit in and people my own age are boring generally. Great weather, food and company, happiest have been for a long while.

[ativan]

Like taking my best meds and crawling off some where, where I won't hurt anyone any more.
ativan


I should do what I think she wanted and just go and not look back

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[Sevan]

Perhaps shutting the computer a bit might do you some good Ativan. Get into nature with your camera, or take a walk...maybe call one of your friends who helps in situations such as these. Don't let your mood get the best of you. Times like these are when it's best to breath life, get some air into those lungs and get out of your own head. Swirling around negative thoughts never helped anyone. I mean the best...I swear. I don't want you to wallow. *huge hugs*