MtF Transsexuals and our Penises

[~RoadToTrista~]

2, I can use it, but I would get sexual dysphoria. I do want the surgery, especially if I get into a relationship.

[Jenny_B_Good]

Hoping to sing one day DING DONG witch is dead. 

LOL.......... Classic, I'm so using that.

Joke claimed.

[grrl1nside]

Between 1 & 2 and would jump on the table immediately if asked. No doubts at all, just get it done... I appreciate all the rules around this, but seriously it is my body... I've come to appreciate all the battles feminists have fought over their/women's bodies much more.

[justmeinoz]

I chose 1 because there was no option of, "oh, that thing, it's just a plumbing fitting now, that keeps getting in the way."  I don't really give it any other thought since I started HRT.

Karen

[Sam(my)I am]

2 more then 1, I hate doing things with it and have gotten no pleasure whenever any of my girlfriends (and 1 boyfriend I told no one about) did anything with it. It just felt wrong and made me really unhappy and annoyed. I much prefer giving the receiving at any rate, if I had the right equipment then it might be another story  . All in all I just don't want it but I can tolerate it because of how deep in stealth I have been...

oh btw age 18

[Ann Onymous]

I'd be interested to know the age of the voters. I myself am mid thirties and have lived with my ' faults' for a while

mid 40's.  Treatment commenced in the late 80's after finally dodging the dinosaur mentality I ran into during the mid-80's.   

[AbraCadabra]

I'm 65,

SRS in 3 weeks.

Go figure,
Axelle

[flux_capacitor]

I'm 19.  Feel kinda disgusted by my genitalia but I do use it for sex and stuff, although recently I've begun wondering if I'd enjoy sex more if I didn't use those parts.  I've lately even considered tucking and using a strap-on.   

[kelly_aus]

I chose 1 because there was no option of, "oh, that thing, it's just a plumbing fitting now, that keeps getting in the way."  I don't really give it any other thought since I started HRT.

Karen

That pretty much sums it up for me..

[Nurse With Wound]

Like most people have said; somewhere between 1 and 2.

I don't like the thing, and I get a dysphoria from thinking about it and will definitely get SRS. But eventually I can't help using it because of this damned male libido, and when I do I feel like I've lost myself and get dysphoric. Though then I just kind of forget about it until it the time comes around again.

[azSam]

I'm 26 and I voted, "I won't even look at it; I certainly won't touch it or let a partner touch it.  I want it gone ASAP."

That's actually very accurate. I hate looking at it, touching it, or even the thought of letting my partner see it.

[inna]

It was an instrument by which my beautiful child was conceived, I always hid it from view, subconsciously, the fact I had learned in therapy. I wouldn't miss it and in fact I will eventually get what was suppose to be there in the first place but for now all it is, is an enlarged clitoris with couple of ovaries which dropped down by mistake but will be dealt with even sooner. Sexually however, it is null and no longer an instrument of pleasure, so to answer the question, definitely #1 giving in to patience and bits of #2

[jainie marlena]

     I tried to cut "it" off a few times when i was younger & still have a scar on "it" to this day. If i didn't need it to pee i'd prolly have cleaved that thing off by myself years ago. 

been there myself. Never told anyone.

@jenny b. Good
Got to love the classics. Lol.

[Maga Girl]

I'm okay with using my penis for sexual pleasure etc. and I am not content with it ... but I don't want gender reassignment surgery       

yes, you can say  ->

[hilah.hayley]

I'm somewhere between 1 and 2. I want it gone right away, at times even wanting to cut it off already. With that in mind however, if I'm making love and it's the only way to get sexual pleasure I let it happen but afterward I feel horrible and disgusted about it. I want it gone immediately.

[VeryGnawty]

That pretty much sums it up for me..

Me, too.  It's just sort of...meh.  Not good or bad, really.

I used to have a lot of dysphoria about it.  But to be honest, these days the genitals are the least important aspect of transition.  I'm much more concerned with voice, general body shape, etc.

Maybe because nobody ever sees it, it seems unimportant.

[Hikari]

I am no fan of it, and I do want SRS someday, but it isn't my enemy. I mean I don't feel guilty deriving sexual pleasure from it or the fact that it is used in as material in SRS. I am just making do the best with what I have, I guess though I will throw a party once it is gone.

So option #2 for me.

[Keroppi]

Like so many before me.... None of the above.

I generally afford looking at it, but I can and also have no problem touching it if necessary. I don't plan on being in a relationship / intimate with anyone until I'm postop. I do want it gone ASAP. Generally, I do not mastrabute as male does but every once a while I can and do to keep it stretched for when I eventually do have surgery.

[LilKittyCatZoey]

how does when i was younger tried to cut it off but it hurt to much sound ? i would care less if i could haven't sexual pleasure but its still needed for srs so to me its material

[LifeInNeon]

I have used it plenty in the past decade and never minded it. But the flip side is that I often (not always) put myself in the role of being on the receiving end. I enjoyed the physical sensation plenty, but sex was very much a projective experience for me.

Now that I've started, I've found my sexuality changing. Now that I don't need to transfer my desire to be a woman to wanting to be WITH a woman, I have found that I enjoy women as companions more than partners. From a young age I wanted female friendship; it was the next logical step to have a female partner due to my obsession with the female body. But I'm liberated of that now.

Curiously, as a result, I am now much more uncomfortable about my penis. *I* am fine with using it; but I wouldn't want a partner to, nor would I want to use it on them. Its internalized BS, but I would feel like if a partner wanted to use it, it would be because they see me as part male. No amount of Julia Serano's reasoning undoes the weird feeling. It also makes me uncomfortable because I do plan on SRS and I am unsure about entering into a relationship when things will be changing.