Hi! So much to try to understand...

[Angela78]

I've finally started seeing a therapist (yay!) who is helping me understand myself and what I've been going through.  It scares the hell out of me - I thought for sooooo many years that this was something I could just enjoy in private that would never need to come to the surface, but I can see the effect it has had on other parts of my life (addictions and relationships).  I'm going to try to figure out where I fit in the gender spectrum and what I want to do about it while recognizing that I have a wife and two young kids.  It's nice to find such a supportive group here at Susans and I'm sure I'll be spending more time here. 

Angela.

[AbraCadabra]

Yep, it can get spooky once you fall out of, or are kicked out of the closet.

I recall my own mental dialogue, going: "I am a woman... that can't be!... Yes, but I AM! Bull ->-bleeped-<- just drop IT, shut up!!! I can't, that's who I am! No! That's nuts! Yes, but it is... etc. etc.

This went on until I was ready to throw up or do what ever would get me out of this situation. The clear alternative --- BIG checkout. I chose transition.

So here I am 1 1/2 years later, 3 weeks to SRS, and 40 years of trying to avoid the inevitable.

Life moves forward --- THAT can be scary in deed.

Welcome to the world, :-)
Axelle

[Devlyn]

Hi Angela, welcome to Susans! You're part of the family now, pull up a chair! Hugs, Tracey