This was a very difficult phase to endure, but has largely been resolved.
Still, occasionally a vestige will manifest itself; but even then, such is only fleeting in duration.
"Denial and Disbelief"
When an event that evoked psychic pain relative to my TS and attendant changes, the mind would automatically go into this cycle of historical review of the manifest evidences. re-validating the validity of my TS.
Before it was largely intellectually and emotionally accepted as incontrovertible, undeniable fact, this was occurring so frequently that it was causing pain in itself and driving me crazy.
But then this basically ceased and a placidity and sense of firm conviction supplanted this re-validation cycling.
There is a great deal of strength derived from firm conviction.
