close to a breakdown

[lucaluca]

hey, i just came back from my first therapy session and i am pretty in a swivet. i don't know what i should do and what i really want.
my therapist said that people who have an attitude like i have are going to feel melancholic even after transition. she was really nice, but i feel even more worse after this session than before. but she sounded like she thinks i'm a crossdresser or something like that.
i don't want to rush into transition and i really have to figure out if it is the right thing to do, but on the other hand this subject attends me since i am 3 years old.
istn't it normal to be afraid? isn't it normal to say "i don't want to be transsexual"? isn't it normal to be on doubt about transition, even if you know it would be the right thing for you??

please share your thoughts with me. i don't want you to tell me what i should do, but i want a nice advice  otherwise i'm going to freak out 

[LilKittyCatZoey]

hey, i just came back from my first therapy session and i am pretty in a swivet. i don't know what i should do and what i really want.
my therapist said that people who have an attitude like i have are going to feel melancholic even after transition. she was really nice, but i feel even more worse after this session than before. but she sounded like she thinks i'm a crossdresser or something like that.
i don't want to rush into transition and i really have to figure out if it is the right thing to do, but on the other hand this subject attends me since i am 3 years old.
istn't it normal to be afraid? isn't it normal to say "i don't want to be transsexual"? isn't it normal to be on doubt about transition, even if you know it would be the right thing for you??

please share your thoughts with me. i don't want you to tell me what i should do, but i want a nice advice  otherwise i'm going to freak out 

its normal sweetie i mean give it time i mean its like your on a boat going to uncharted waters so don't fret you just more sessions before you can truly understand yourself hey my mom got me a dude for mine he is gr8 but lol kinda odd talking about some stuff but trust me you will feel good before you know it mwa

[JennX]

Everyone is different. There is no "correct path" for everyone. Some people knew something was not right since day one... others, took a little longer. No right and no wrong here. No one size fits all in life. Take your time and figure out what is going to make you happy and comfortable.

[Tamaki]

Since it's your first therapy session the two of you are just beginning to get to know each other. It seems like it might be too early for her to say what you'd be like after transition. Therapy is a process that should help you answer your questions, give it some time.

istn't it normal to be afraid? isn't it normal to say "i don't want to be transsexual"? isn't it normal to be on doubt about transition, even if you know it would be the right thing for you??

I'm afraid and it's getting less scary as time goes on. I still don't want to be transsexual but I know I am. I've had lots of doubts but have fewer as I transition. All of this sounds pretty normal for someone questioning the things you are.

Figuring out who you are takes a lot of time and isn't always easy. Be gentle with yourself when you're having a difficult time. Just remember this isn't a race, go at your own pace.