The Emotional Impact of HRT

[V M]

I've been on HRT for nearly two years now and thought I had control over the influx of emotion associated with it... But then there are days like today

I rode my bike to the store per usual and everything was going fine, most of it is single lane each way, but I do have to cross a few double lanes each way intersections

I was on my way home and came to the last double lanes crossing which has no traffic signal, only a two way stop for the single lanes... I would start across and cars would come going obviously way too fast and I would retreat back

Normally this wouldn't bother me and I'd just wait for a break in traffic, but there was no break and no-one would stop to let me across and I started crying... Finally, cars on the left two lanes and one car on the right stopped and waved me across

I was nearly across when a truck swerved around the car that had stopped to the last open lane and passed right in front barely missing me, I could feel the wind, my heart raced, I felt nauseous and burst into tears

Surprisingly, some of the people that had stopped pulled off to see if I was alright, one even followed to make sure I got home okay even though I'd told him I just lived one more block away

I did start to feel better knowing that someone cared, but then started crying over the whole thing as soon as I got home and set my groceries down

Sorry for the drama and being a cry baby

Share your experience

[Hermione01]

That was a close call, very scary indeed.

Hope you will be okay about riding your bike in the future. 

[V M]

Thank you Hermione

I've been an avid bicycle rider for years and have had plenty of close calls, even been hit in the past... I'm a very defensive rider... Not sure why today's experience affected me so much... Maybe it was the size of the truck and realizing it would have smashed me like a bug

I've never cried for such things before though... But it is a very dangerous intersection that I've had close calls at before... I'm blaming the hormones

[V M]

Oh, and to everyone else that read this and didn't give a care that I nearly got killed today... Go catch a bus 

[Constance]

I, too, am an avid cyclist and I care a great deal that you were nearly killed. Although, I didn't take my bike today. I walked to work and took the bus for some errands afterwards.

Last week, there was a day where I was just so hot and tired, I was very upset and nearly in tears from the sheer heat. I can't remember ever being close to tears just because of the heat.

Good thing I don't live in Texas.

[V M]

Thank you Connie

Sorry about the comment about catching a bus... It was nothing personal towards people that ride bus lines, wish we had a bus line where I live sometimes... I'm just rather shaken up

[V M]

Actually, I think it is the culmination of several things hitting me over the past few weeks and feeling overwhelmed and nearly getting run over by a lifted 4x4 was just the straw that broke the camel's back

If I wouldn't have noticed the truck and stopped and turned my wheel away at the last second, I would have continued across and got creamed... Then none of us would have known anything and probably not give a care

Anyway, I wanted to discuss the emotional effects of HRT, not nearly getting killed today... Although nearly getting killed did have a part to do with wanting to discuss things... Maybe the realization of my own mortality hit harder than usual

[Tamaki]

I'm glad you noticed the truck and are still here!

I've had times where that one event is the tipping point and I lose it. Not do to hormones just because I can't take anymore. It's harder when it's something scary. Hugs.

[V M]

Thank you Hannah Irene,

I have experienced much scarier things, but for some reason I was not so emotionally impacted... I wasn't allowed to have much in the way of emotions for several years and so being allowed to express such is still somewhat new to to me

Sure, the emotions were there, but they were suppressed... It is difficult to describe

[Cindy]

That's awful Sis
I think you know how I would be treating the moron who nearly killed you.

Talk when you can.

Hugs

Cindy

[Nero]

Glad you're okay, hon. It's just easier to cry when you're upset, scared, relieved, etc on estrogen.

[Padma]

Glad you're still here - and my oestrogen must be kicking in, I got teary reading about the people who stopped to make sure you were okay...

[Keaira]

Dont worry about the tears Padma. It comes with the territory and you have every right to shed them. I cycle pretty much every day back and forth to work. So, I'm out there peddling with you ^_^
*huggles tenderly*

[Padma]

Hey, I'm used to tears, my oestrogen's always been high . I was just being silly there (and now here too...)

[V M]

Thank you Sis, Nero, Padma and Keaira

I felt both surprised and glad for the folks that turned off to checked on me... They acted like they thought I was having a heart attack... But I was just frightened and a bit out of breath

[Padma]

I think a close brush with death is a valid reason for feeling emotion, oestrogen or no oestrogen . It's good to know that some people out there are aware of others. I hope it doesn't stop you cycling xx

[bethw]

Hi Virginia;
I just saw your post. sorry this took so long.
I'm sooooo glad you're okay and that there are still caring people in this world.
Be safe sis. Just happy you got home ok.
Hugs
Beth

[Catherine Sarah]

Hi Virginia,
I'm glad you're well and safe now. You don't have to be on HRT just to have the emotional moment you had. It comes with being  -  the woman -  you are. I'm not even on HRT yet, but the stuff I'm on does pretty well the same thing. If I go to a movie with less than a box of tissue, you can expect trouble. Don't be concerned about it, it is a very natural reaction. In fact, if men gave themselves permission to cry under the same or similar circumstances; society in general; would be in a far better place.
Having now experienced this event, how do you feel about yourself, and the possibility of it happening again?
Be safe, well and happy
Lotsa luv
Catherine

[Constance]

I have experienced much scarier things...

You've "experienced much scarier things" than near-death experiences? Then you are allowed to be emotionally impacted.

I think a close brush with death is a valid reason for feeling emotion, oestrogen or no oestrogen . It's good to know that some people out there are aware of others. I hope it doesn't stop you cycling xx

I couldn't have said it better.

[tekla]

Male or female, you need to ride in a highly aggressive manner if you are riding on public streets.  Glad you are OK.  You should have reported the driver of the offending car.