Barely checked on here in months.. little update about life.. inspiration I guess?
Coming up in a couple days is being one year out to my parents. Pretty much all of my relatives/friends that matter know by now.
Been living full time for uhmm.. 15 or so months now, been on T for 8.5 months. Chest surgery should be coming up in the New Year, been with my girlfriend who is fully accepting for around 15 months as well.
Voice has finally changed, dropped about an octave. In fact it gave me away as trans.. because a lesbian who just assumed I was an adorygnousy male before was like whoah.. your voice dropped over the summer, you're 23.. too late for puberty.. must be trans, even though she had no clue before. So that was kinda weird.
Living as male is easy, I live with 3 roomates, non of who know, my friends at school do not know, most of my current friends in general do not know, worked a few jobs, everythings going good. It's nice to just be able to pass and live life.
Hormonally, my t levels keep dropping, barely grown any extra hair, still bleeding monthly, pretty much only real change is voice and acne.. but that's okay. I passed before, I pass now, T isn't a huge deal to me.
My moms full on accepting and has been since day one, dad just pretends to ignore anythings happening for the most part (though doesn't out me in public), which I'm okay with. I feel no need to pressure him to change his home life and me. It still feels odd once in a while to get a male pronoun after 22 years of female pronouns.. but I think it's just because I am still on alert for someone calling me a she. hahaha
Grades have gone up so much, since transitioning and finally feeling at one with myself, that it looks like I'll be getting a scholarship.
It does worry me that there seems to be a lot of younger trans trenders in the area, and it scares me that these young girls/boys are rushing into this decision. I know some of them look up to me, and I wish they didn't, because I don't want to be an icon to them, instead I just try to talk them down, slow them down.. make them stop and think rather then just be like.. I hate being female therefore I must be male type things. It scares me that people see me being so succesful and then think, no matter what their situations or their reasons for transitioning, that transitioning is going to fix all of their problems.. anyhow..
I guess. That's the life of Tad up to date.
