Barely checked on here in months.. little update about life.. inspiration I guess?

Coming up in a couple days is being one year out to my parents. Pretty much all of my relatives/friends that matter know by now.
Been living full time for uhmm.. 15 or so months now, been on T for 8.5 months. Chest surgery should be coming up in the New Year, been with my girlfriend who is fully accepting for around 15 months as well.

Voice has finally changed, dropped about an octave. In fact it gave me away as trans.. because a lesbian who just assumed I was an adorygnousy male before was like whoah.. your voice dropped over the summer, you're 23.. too late for puberty.. must be trans, even though she had no clue before. So that was kinda weird.

Living as male is easy, I live with 3 roomates, non of who know, my friends at school do not know, most of my current friends in general do not know, worked a few jobs, everythings going good. It's nice to just be able to pass and live life.

Hormonally, my t levels keep dropping, barely grown any extra hair, still bleeding monthly, pretty much only real change is voice and acne.. but that's okay. I passed before, I pass now, T isn't a huge deal to me.

My moms full on accepting and has been since day one, dad just pretends to ignore anythings happening for the most part (though doesn't out me in public), which I'm okay with. I feel no need to pressure him to change his home life and me. It still feels odd once in a while to get a male pronoun after 22 years of female pronouns.. but I think it's just because I am still on alert for someone calling me a she. hahaha

Grades have gone up so much, since transitioning and finally feeling at one with myself, that it looks like I'll be getting a scholarship.

It does worry me that there seems to be a lot of younger trans trenders in the area, and it scares me that these young girls/boys are rushing into this decision. I know some of them look up to me, and I wish they didn't, because I don't want to be an icon to them, instead I just try to talk them down, slow them down.. make them stop and think rather then just be like.. I hate being female therefore I must be male type things. It scares me that people see me being so succesful and then think, no matter what their situations or their reasons for transitioning, that transitioning is going to fix all of their problems.. anyhow..

I guess. That's the life of Tad up to date.

It's good to hear from you again, Tad.  I'm so glad that everything is going well for you.  I don't think you should worry about young ones who think they may be trans and who look up to you.  I think you are doing a great job of being a role model, a perfect job really.

Great to hear things are going well for you Tad!

Quote from: sonopoly on October 06, 2011, 08:06:17 PM
It's good to hear from you again, Tad.  I'm so glad that everything is going well for you.  I don't think you should worry about young ones who think they may be trans and who look up to you.  I think you are doing a great job of being a role model, a perfect job really.

Only reason why I worry, is that there are no therapy requirements here, and the only person qualified to hand things out in the province.. has apparently slackend off on requirements for t now. He just gave a few of these youngsters the juice (not they can be pretty maniupulative youungsters), and they have it and are so scared of it that they don't know what to do. hahaha. Not to be judging, but the one's a classic case that she who shall not be named would jump all over, mysogny so it's better to be a boy type kid, a boy touched me weird, i'm scared or rape type of kid.. and the other few... donno.

haha.. the one kid has it super rooted in their head that they want to be a man, because it will fix all of.. their problems.. they won't have to worry about being hurt because they will be male. They are so convinced of this nothing is going to stop them.. it's a very interesting situation.. while everyone on the sidelines is essentially screaming nooo! we'll see how it plays out. People who chat with me about it have odds on suicide once the kid realizes transitioning doesn't fix lifes problem...

Anyhow.. it just sucks because these kids see me as some kind of sucess story and think it's going to work out the same way for them, I came from a much much different situation. Anyhow.. my life is good.. other then having to write papers for my last semester of uni.

Can you elaborate more on your roommate situation? I always thought it would be hard to live stealth with people and not have them find out, especially pre-top surgery. I guess you probably bind a lot huh? Is that causing you any problems?

Easy.. bind a lot, or have a blanket wrapped around my shoulders (is cold here)... close the door when Im changing.. it's actually stupid easy.

and not worry about being hurt by other males in general.. a dude tried to kiss them once.. and they've been traumatized since essentially.