Name is Nicholas, am 24. Moved to Texas to escape fam..they dont understand and are not exactly well into listening to what i have to say, they honestly think "Im killing myself" by wanting to transition. Its to not be brought up anytime during a conversation with them or they get furious, shout, and then leave the room.. I tried explaining it to my mother back two years ago in more depth..in the end she just assumed me crazy. So i moved 8 hours away to try and make it on my own. This decision has made contact with them..even less than what I had before. (They've been aware of my wishes to transition since i was about 14. and yet ignored the therapists I had seen, advices on what they should do to help me)
I find while most the time i show more masculine behavior, i still have things i find adorable. I still wear make-up from time to time (Black eye liner), I like boots and high heeled boots, some feminine small jackets and having my hair long than short. Most the time i wear boys clothing (im so small i wear the largest sizes from the little boys department) XD Other times, when i feel like dressing up, i wear more mens skinny jeans with a button down shirt, vest, high heeled boots,make-up on, and my hair styled. With my hair long or short, i get called a boy and a girl thru out the day (happens a lot at work). Even when i tell ppl i am a boy, they just simply smile and tell me Im adorable (yet to get out of that state lol) I pack (love my packer and packing shorts) and bind. Ive been told atm, my voice is that of a young boy and wish for it too deepen on hormone therapy plus get some facial hair growing in.
If things work out, i might be starting hormone therapy on the 29th of this month. This will be the first doc visit, and one i have been trying to get for the past 6 years.
I wish to find people more like me, so i dont feel alone.
Ummm think thats it