I just realised I never posted in here, so here goes.
I'm Alex, and even though I identified as agender for some 5-6 years, I'm now slowly setting on demimale, because it fits much better with how I feel (and kind of have always felt) than agender does. I'm starting to look up support groups in my city, and I do want to seek out a gender therapist eventually, because I know I want to transition to a degree and definitely have top surgery. I'm panromantic/pansexual, and I use both they/them and he/him pronouns.
I'm currently trying to figure out what makes me feel Good about myself, where I want to go and what I want to do appearance wise, but I'll figure it out in time. For many years I hid behind another label as to not.... bother with what was actually going on with me, I think mostly out of fear - fear of being rejected, fear of being judged etc. I have a LONG history with bullying, and as I was still in high school when I first started admitting to myself that I'm not a girl, I just wasn't ready for what could come with it. For a long time I was only out online anyway, far away from people I knew IRL. Although most of my current friends now are actually from high school and know I'm not female, it's still scary to think about coming out. I probably will sooner than later, though; they've been my friends for some five years now, it feels right to tell them.
Anyway! I love to read and write, I've been an avid roleplayer in the past on forums as well as Tumblr, though currently I only RP with my best friend through emails. I write short stories and bits and pieces of books I eventually want to write in my spare time, too. I like to sketch from time to time, love playing video games (RPGs and simulation games, mostly) and am also a huge music nerd. I play guitar (bass, electric and acoustic) and I have a CD collection of nearly 250 titles lol, that's not counting doubles from special editions or reissues or any singles I have on CD.
I'm fluent in two languages (Dutch and, obviously, English). I understand French and speak a decent amount, too, and I understand but don't speak German and Spanish. I also know very basic signs in both American Sign Language and Dutch Sign Language and know the hand alphabets of both.
A random fun fact about me is that I collect Coldplay singles, special editions of their albums etc, and plan to get a tattoo after one of their songs that means the absolute world to me.