This thread made me think from a different perspective the situation you might be living in...
Finding a soulmate is something we cannot predict, you may find one that will accept you cding or one that wont, or even one that you may wont like even to share and maybe keep a common realtionship, living with a secret or prersonal prefereence in your intimacy wich is you very right.
The point i want ot discuss is the following, ..in some cases being a cd or develop the need to cd since the early years is a product of lack of female response from girls and maybe an accumulated need or hunger of a female or a grilfirend in one way, not saying a pervert but maybe a person with higher need than any other man.
what on my case applied at least on some years was that i was feeling i needed a girl so much that i was fantasizing of look like one, therefore the need was somehow satisfied, then the need transformed to a nice hobbie, when you enjoy doing what is pleasant to you and makes you feel good, like a drug...thats why many cd cant explain the question WHY?
in the very deep of us, we hold a trauma on a way, which was sorted out by crossdressing or aiming to be or look the opposite sex, our minds were tamed to identifiy the beuty and the sensuality of that activity and try to look to another level within.
The problem comes when we discover there is no much to see or try, and how some says it depends where you get down or stop, if you do, on others the need and the level of cd just scalates and you are trying different things over and over, like going out, or dressing more sexy in public etc,
Living with the hobbie in a family can be a problem as you may need to hide or to work your way fit within the family if you didnt disclosed the scret on time.
but yes you can live with the secret as long as you like it that way.
