out of sudden depression

[Daniel006]

I've had days like this.  There is so much that I want to do, but I can't bring myself to actually do it.  Usually I just end up sitting/lying in one spot accomplishing nothing, or just sleeping.  A lot of the time, I can't even find the will to get myself something to eat.  Some times are worse than others, and I do eventually get out of it.  A couple weeks ago, I went through a pretty mentally rough weekend.  It felt like I was about to burst into tears at any moment.  By the end of that weekend though, I realized the seeming depression was my mind's way of processing something that really needed to be processed.

Basically, I've been having mental fistfights with myself about what I want/need for myself.  That weekend, I realized that my mental drama was because even though I want T, I don't want to want it, as confusing as that may sound.  The ultimate conclusion that has helped me from that weekend is that I finally realized that I DO want T, and had been in denial before that.  It is kind of like a situation in which a person is in an abusive relationship: deep down, they want to end the relationship, but in their more conscious mind, they don't want to want to end the relationship, because of the difficulties that may lie ahead.  However, their situation will never improve until they realize they really do want to end the relationship.

Now, I didn't know what was wrong all weekend until the revelation I came to at the very end.  My mind has strange ways of processing stuff.  In the end, I came to a slightly clearer understanding of myself, which has both eased my mind in some ways, as well as cause other problems that I know I will have to process as well.  I hope my rambling has at least made some sense.  My brain works in strange ways at times.

[Natkat]

I've had days like this.  There is so much that I want to do, but I can't bring myself to actually do it.  Usually I just end up sitting/lying in one spot accomplishing nothing, or just sleeping.  A lot of the time, I can't even find the will to get myself something to eat.  Some times are worse than others, and I do eventually get out of it.  A couple weeks ago, I went through a pretty mentally rough weekend.  It felt like I was about to burst into tears at any moment.  By the end of that weekend though, I realized the seeming depression was my mind's way of processing something that really needed to be processed.

Basically, I've been having mental fistfights with myself about what I want/need for myself.  That weekend, I realized that my mental drama was because even though I want T, I don't want to want it, as confusing as that may sound.  The ultimate conclusion that has helped me from that weekend is that I finally realized that I DO want T, and had been in denial before that.  It is kind of like a situation in which a person is in an abusive relationship: deep down, they want to end the relationship, but in their more conscious mind, they don't want to want to end the relationship, because of the difficulties that may lie ahead.  However, their situation will never improve until they realize they really do want to end the relationship.

Now, I didn't know what was wrong all weekend until the revelation I came to at the very end.  My mind has strange ways of processing stuff.  In the end, I came to a slightly clearer understanding of myself, which has both eased my mind in some ways, as well as cause other problems that I know I will have to process as well.  I hope my rambling has at least made some sense.  My brain works in strange ways at times.

this makes alot of sense,
specially the signs, sleeping alot, I manly sleep for the whole days often,
and also less food, I can go days without eating..

it all seams pretty simular.

thanks

[emostache69]

same thing happens to me sometimes
in fact if i get too stressed out by something i actually end up getting sick, anywhere from a light cold to a sever fever. it's just a weird thing that my body does to tell me that its time to calm down and de-stress. when i'm in that dark pit of depression i usually take at least one day our of school to be by my self. but i always find that being alone for a little while and doing what always seems to make me happy, lazing about on the couch eating my favorite food and watching an awsome tv show helps me to de-stress. but venting has always worked the best for me. i try not to burden my friends with my depression too much but when it becomes too much i go to their house, vent, usually cry my eyes out until i feel at least a little better and then we hang out doing whatever i please and i get to be king for a day.
so yeah, don't know if i was helpful but just some food for thought.