the thread that can't be derailed....

[Shantel]

I just have to learn how to be utterly irresponsible. I think i might be constantly waiting for complete steangers to reprimand me in the same way that my mother used to.

But the only mental health professionals i've spoken to failed to realize how difficult my problems were, and only saw my optimistic outlook on things.

Maybe you're just not letting the mental health pro's in your head in fear of being reprimanded the way your mother used to rather than helping with anything constructive?

[Taka]

Maybe you're just not letting the mental health pro's in your head in fear of being reprimanded the way your mother used to rather than helping with anything constructive?

The is more that they didn't give me enough time before deciding that i'm not suicidal enough to get priority before other patients. One time i practically had to beg one to give me a second appointment, but was kicked out of their system when i didn't come to that appointment because i never got the letter. Nobody called to ask either, i only knew i'd gotten that appointment after i received a bill for not showing.

No need to wonder what went wrong.

[insane_protagonist]

This morning I dreamed I was having an existential crisis.

In my dream I was talking to a girl who told me she used to be transgender until she started taking medication for her moods, and then it turned out she was actually just a lesbian.

I was upset, because I wanted medication to feel better, but I didn't want to be cishet (I was sure I wouldn't become a lesbian because my attraction to girls isn't strong enough or something). Then I thought "Oh, I really AM just doing this because I want to be special!"

my brain was apparently not even trying to be subtle today. XD

[Shantel]

The is more that they didn't give me enough time before deciding that i'm not suicidal enough to get priority before other patients. One time i practically had to beg one to give me a second appointment, but was kicked out of their system when i didn't come to that appointment because i never got the letter. Nobody called to ask either, i only knew i'd gotten that appointment after i received a bill for not showing.

No need to wonder what went wrong.

Gaaaahh I hate that sort of treatment! I'm going through the same thing with a so-called ear, nose & Throat specialist who refused to give me a follow-up appointment saying there is nothing wrong with my ear. Really? Then why is this acid like crap draining out of it burning my skin and I am suddenly totally deaf in that ear? Makes you wonder what motivates these uncaring people to insert themselves into these professions other than for the sake of a paycheck.

[Taka]

So i'm just waiting for when i have enough time to look for the right person.

[nickikim]

So i'm just waiting for when i have enough time to look for the right person.

The right person never looks like the right person until it's to late and you are keeping house with the wrongest person ever.

[MadelineB]

The right person never looks like the right person until it's to late and you are keeping house with the wrongest person ever.

Oh, I wondered if my ex-boyfriend was dating again!

[Shaina]

The right person never looks like the right person until it's to late and you are keeping house with the wrongest person ever.

Such a scary thought and it happens much too often! 

[LordKAT]

Every time I find the 'right' person, they are with someone else.

[Taka]

The right person never looks like the right person until it's to late and you are keeping house with the wrongest person ever.

i was thinking about therapists. not all of them are right for me. would be nice if i could recognize that other type of right person when i meet them.

i've tried keeping house with a wrong person once. wasn't too nice, but at least i ended it before too much damage was done. to either of us...

[Kim 526]

Mumford & Sons: "Lover of the Light"

[Shantel]

Every time I find the 'right' person, they are with someone else.

Sorry hon, she's got her claws in me and I just can't get away! 

[musicofthenight]

Ugh.  Waiting for razor burn to heal and proper razor, brush, and associated kit to arrive.  I swear to stay away from face-graters from here on out. 



Also, hydrogen peroxide, while impressive, is too aggressive to use daily.  Inflating one's pores with high pressure sebum-oxygen foam can't be good for them.  It does however make a good cleaner for electronics and eyeglasses when combined with [other things] - shame the mixture might explode.



On a sunny note, I am rapidly becoming a fan of Pals breast forms.  The sizing chart is kinda off, but small-business customer service is win.

I might have to mold my own some day.  Don't know that I'd want to go into business, but little scrawny MtAs like me could use more subtle options.  And the state of commercial bum-padding just makes me sad.



Hair conditioner = very oily skin moisturizer.  Might be too much for most people; I'm finding this stuff perfect for chapped skin in winter. 



Huh.  I guess I'm turning into a cosmetics nerd.

[Lo]

Three words, musicofthenight:

The Body Shop. ;]

[King Malachite]

I like red brick houses.

[Shaina]

I like red brick houses.

Lol one day I'm going to teach you about architecture without you dozing off!

[King Malachite]

Lol one day I'm going to teach you about architecture without you dozing off!

I don't know how you're going to pull that off if it doesn't involve video games or Philly Cheesesteaks.   

[Taka]

there's too much feelings, i have no idea where to put them all.

[LordKAT]

I'm safe, for the moment.  Is it spring yet?

[King Malachite]

I have to use the bathroom but my brother is taking a bath....and I can't find an improvised STP, an empty toilet paper roll.  I hope he doesn't take a long time....but he will.  -sigh-