Not so Typical Dysphoria Triggers

[Sohmu]

Along with ftm vids, movies with male leads and being over emotional do it for me(though I don't think that's very a odd one?).  I'll watch some action film with a man in it and be completely interested in the movie, and then it ends and I see myself again and I'm just disgusted because I'm not that, or close. Works every time. D:

[Electric Wizard]

Not same, but similar over here.
I can't stand both, shower or bath, doesn't even matter. I can easily procrastinate... I know it's disgusting not taking a shower for days. But I can easily stay out of the tub/shower, "by chance". By "studying", "there's no more hot water", "I don't have time", "I've already took a shower" (which is a lie)...

I'm like this. It's gotten much better now that I'm seeing T related changes, though. I hope it continues to improve.

Binding itself is sort of a trigger. It's miserable doing so, since I am always really overheated when wearing more than a t-shirt. I definitely prefer the look of binding, but if I try not to look down, it works well enough that I won't go insane and look for a large kitchen knife to lop them off myself 

[Andris]

Good to hear that many of you get on well with cismales, and so on..!
For me it's not working...I become stressed, so easily. Then I always fail. It bothers me so much when I'm between heterosexual cismales and I know that I can look like a male. Until I don't say a word. Then If I do... I cannot talk/act like a real, a born-male guy. In the last weeks I became so nervous at work when I had to say a single word. (And here... there's no therapist, anybody who can teach you something like this, officially. I'll go and find an actor or whoever.  ) It's on my face, in my moves that I was not raised as a boy. Damn, it's suffocating, more and more. (Luckily between my gay male buddies I feel very good. But I just can't select my workmates, my university group etc.)

[Felix]

Andris, if it makes you feel any better, I have access to therapists and they aren't a huge help in my learning how to act male. I just watch other guys in public (and lol try not to get caught doing so) and occasionally ask questions of the one cismale I'm close to.

[Paul]

I lucked out and my therapist is an FTM Trans as well (which I didn't know when I first met with him).  However, even though he started transitioning 10 years ago he still isn't a cismale so I'm sure there are some things/mannerisms that he doesn't know.  My dad isn't around anymore, I only see my brothers every couple of months and there's only 1 (soon to be 2) other guys at the house I work at with like 8-10 female staff and 98% of the guys i hang out with are your stereotypical feminine gay men so I don't have a lot of cismale influences so I, like you Felix, find myself observing other males in public and picking up some tips that way.