Beautiful Daughters

[Julie Marie]

I just watched Episode 3 of Beautiful Daughters.  Lynn Conway and Leslie Townsend were two of the featured women.  I found it a very emotional video that brought out some of the hurt we all feel from rejection as well as the fear of being ourselves. 

Once again I realized how much pain there still is inside.  But videos like this which show the lives of women I thought were past the pain let me know it's okay to have a good cry once in a while.

Julie

[cindianna_jones]

Julie,

We never completely vanquish the pain.  Look at me.  I'm 20 years post-op and still have barriers to break down. This is something we will have to work with for the rest of our lives.  This is especially true if we have families.  There will always be a birth, a wedding, or a funeral.  There will always be the longing, the waiting, and the hope.

The film was excellent.  Thanks for the link.  I think that I'll bookmark that site and go back for the others when I can.

Cindi

[Julie Marie]

I keep thinking about that video clip.  It had such an impact on me because I could so completely relate.  The idea that any one of us could spend the rest of our lives alone is so sad.  It says something horrible about the society we live in.  How could an entire society completely shun another human being?  That it happens is unfathomable. 

But this is our reality.  And yet look at all we do.  I see these strong people who keep forging ahead, most with very positive attitudes.  And I admire them so, you especially Cindi.  The strongest people I know are TS.  MTFs violate the #1 male rule (don't do anything feminine) and have to do it for all to see.  There's no hiding.  That takes an enormous amount of strength!  How can one help but admire that? 

We have been given this challenge for a reason.  It's our responsibility to figure out what that reason is.  Once we know the reason, we will know what to do.

Julie

[RuthChambers]

Hiya Julie, what happened to the link ?? Ruth

[Julie Marie]

Hiya Julie, what happened to the link ?? Ruth

Ruth, it's in the first post.  Click on "Beautiful Daughters".

Julie

[RuthChambers]

Thanks, Julie

I look forward to watching the video's tonight.

Ruth

well it was blue on blue on blue, that's my excuse and I'm sticking to it..... nothing to do with the G&T I was drinking last night, nothing at all, no officer not at all ..... 

[ChefAnnagirl]

Hi Julie -

Deeply thanks for posting this link.... I had almost forgotten about that series -
Ya know - it's funny - i didn't even realize that this post was about that LOGO special -
I simply just read the posting title, "Beautiful Daughters" - and i felt the tears begin to well up from deep inside - what an incredible phrase - how incredibly meaningful in so many astoundingly touching and complex ways for someone like me - or you - or any of us that go through this -

Ahhhh, my God - if only this phrase could be claimed and acknowledged by my own family - how rippingly beautiful and melancholy and full of an almost unspeakable depth of personal revelation this feeling is - the longing so bad - my own self acknowledgement has finally arrived, but the accompanying acknowledgement from all those that i love so much - i hope so badly i will get that someday...

Thanks Julie - You are beautiful and amazing - I hope your loved ones claim you as the beautiful daughter that you are -

If i write any more now i will start bawling and destroy my makeup for the day - i really could use a good cry today though - i think i'll watch some of these later tonight and get a little internal release...

Lovingly always,
Most Sincerely,


Annagirl

[Aurora]

Wow, So emotional.  I am going to watch this with my mother. 

It made me proud to be me.  Proud for a part of something, and for all women.

Thank you!

[ChefAnnagirl]

Today,

My father - one of the most resistant and intially one of the most adamant and angry - even quite cruel at times -  about it all - said tonight that if anyone should ever ask about me in relation to his business (which i still have some involvement in from time to time) he would tell them that I AM HIS DAUGHTER. No further discussion necessary as he put it.

I am/we are so completely overwhelmed. I think i am still numb right now -
Not only that, but his wife - my stepmom of 25 years - also just as adamantly closed for the first 2 years, gave me a gift, a stemglass - with my name - the name "Maryanne", engraved on it. My S/O and I were taking care of their home and business while they were away on vacation, and i unavoidably had to deal with some clients and contractors as myself.

Considering the nature of this business - that was a huge risk, and although i have been living and working full-time for almost 3 years now in my own life and business, this was another step in a pretty nervy direction for me, especially given my history with them since i began transition.

I am completely humbled, and hope only that i can and will be the best Daughter that they could ever have.

Thanks,

Most Sincerely,


Maryanne

[cindianna_jones]

Maryann,

This is simply beautiful. I can't think of anything more wonderful than to have your parents call you their daughter. It is deeply emotional and filled with love. Good for you!

Cindi

[Julie Marie]

Today,

My father - one of the most resistant and intially one of the most adamant and angry - even quite cruel at times -  about it all - said tonight that if anyone should ever ask about me in relation to his business (which i still have some involvement in from time to time) he would tell them that I AM HIS DAUGHTER. No further discussion necessary as he put it.

I am/we are so completely overwhelmed. I think i am still numb right now -
Not only that, but his wife - my stepmom of 25 years - also just as adamantly closed for the first 2 years, gave me a gift, a stemglass - with my name - the name "Maryanne", engraved on it.

Maryanne

Maryanne, that is so great!  I just had something like what happened with your dad with my mom so I know the emotions that fill you when a parent refers to you as their daughter.  I'm so happy for you!

Hi Julie -

Deeply thanks for posting this link.... I had almost forgotten about that series -
Ya know - it's funny - i didn't even realize that this post was about that LOGO special -
I simply just read the posting title, "Beautiful Daughters" - and i felt the tears begin to well up from deep inside - what an incredible phrase - how incredibly meaningful in so many astoundingly touching and complex ways for someone like me - or you - or any of us that go through this -

You took the words right out of my mouth.  As I read this tears welled up in my eyes.  Had I been alone I know I would have started crying.  It may sound strange to thank you for that but that's how I feel.  I guess getting in touch with those emotions is something I need to be reminded to do once in a while.  Thank you for taking me there Maryanne.

Julie