How to deal with depression

[tonia]

I'm on androcur and a low dosage of estrogen. My hormones is like eunuch's one, although my estrogens are in the highest limit for a male. I'm dealing with depression all the time. I do not know how to handle. I do not like anything, I think I just want to die, not interest in life. I sometimes think that the problem is that I'm not where I want in my life, I still act as a male, although I can pass like female, most people do not recognize me. But I'm not sure...when I'm not in this mood I feel fine and I like my self. But that does not happen too often anymore.

[Sad Girl]

Maybe you should ask your endo to change your Estrogen and your anti-androgen which perhaps doesnt suit you. Me too when I take some types of hormones or anti androgen I get depressed.

[envie]

I sometimes think that the problem is that I'm not where I want in my life, I still act as a male, although I can pass like female, most people do not recognize me. But I'm not sure...when I'm not in this mood I feel fine and I like my self. But that does not happen too often anymore.

This is very good question to ask in your situation. Does your depression come as a result of chemical imbalance or life circumstances? Did it just start upon taking the HRT?
Can you make yourself a transitional plan where you can always do a little steps to not to feel trapped and thus easy your depression? For me as long as I had the feeling of moving forward no matter how little I felt a little better and more hopeful. Although once I got on HRT I felt so much better even on low dosage at first.
I hope you figure it out and feel better soon!

[Maja.V]

If your depression was caused by HRT, it may very well be because of Androcur. It contains small amounts of medroxyprogesterone, which in itself can cause severe depression.

[Steffi]

Androcur is notorious for causing depression as a side effect.
I had it for a fortnight to counter the T-spike caused by starting an implant and it just made me want to die.
You could try and get put in the Decapeptyl (Triptorelin) depot injection, available monthly or 3 monthly versions