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Happiness, depression, happiness, depression..... etc and so on.

Started by auburnAubrey, April 30, 2012, 03:54:50 PM

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So, I am getting closer to my FFS (and subsequent breast augmentation), and changing my gender on my license and passport...  and I have days of happiness.... which suddenly turn into days of depression, and back again.

Is this normal??  I know everyone's path is different, but GEEZ!!

Friday night I was at dinner with my parents.  In walked a woman with a style very close to what I wear.  She was beautiful.  I said to myself "I cannot WAIT until I am just living my life that way everyday!"...  Then, Saturday morning on the phone with my friend, i burst into tears and cried my eyes out.

WTF??

I'm not a depressive type of person.....  And I've been excited about what's coming...... but the last two weeks have been a rollercoaster.  Not thoughts of not to do it, but just down about the whole thing......

I guess I kind of assumed at this point there would be no more fear or anxiety....  but boy, I've been up and down for two weeks........ BLAH!  BLAH I SAY!
"To live both the yin and the yang, the male and the female, is a divine gift." ~ Me

"Know the masculine, but keep to the feminine, and become a watershed to the world". ~ The Tao Te Ching
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