Had to wake early this morning for work (5:30am), must've been in a real deep sleep when my alarm went off because I didn't hear it right away, yet I heard my mom call out to me to get up, I don't know if she really was or not, heck she didn't even remember saying anything to me, but it got me stirred enough to hear the alarm. Got ready for work.
6:15am
Fourth pill. Put it in my mouth, got some water, swallowed. Okay Snickers, lets go, see if you gotta do some business outside. Took my dog out for a walk. A few minutes okay. A few more, very, very slight numbing around the cheekbone on right side of face. More minutes pass, still ever so slight numbness there, but otherwise fine. Nearly a half hour later, still okay. Getting ready to get out the door to go to work.
Got to work just as boss lady was pulling up, so we got in at the same time, the old boss guy was there already prepping for the truck. I was hoping being so early and the sun not showing that it'd been an easier unload than last week with that hot afternoon sun, but nope, early morning was very humid, felt like a jungle, very hard to breath, quickly exhausted all strength. Got in a ton of 'Back to School' stuff - yeah, already, school just friggin' ended, but hey, had a few cartons of Thanksgiving come in too, now that is crazy. I never did fully recover from the heat, I felt weakened the rest of the time at work, plus lack of sleep, working slower than usual with my HBC section, oh well, I'm not a machine. Keep telling myself I need to do something else for work, this physical stuff just isn't as easy as it used to be for me, its like the longer I do it the harder it gets, but could be just the heat getting to me.
Clocked out, getting ready to walk out the doors, see my mom and Snickers waiting for me, yay, don't have to walk in this crap. Mom paid the rent and water earlier, brought Snickers with to come pick me up, but then had to get quarters for laundry later, so stopped off at the nearby grocery store leaving me and Snickers waiting outside. Got home, showered, got something to eat, then sat down with my mom to watch a movie she rented yesterday from Redbox, 'Escape Plan' with Arnold Schwarzenegger and Sylvester Stallone in it, good action prison movie, rarely ever do either of them fail to entertain. Later mom said we needed to go out and drop the movies off so they won't be late, plus pick up a few things from the Dollar Tree that we needed, so then put on my nice pretty blue dress that I had yet to wear anywhere, and dolled myself up super gorgeous, ready to go out, unfortunately it was a really windy day so I decided to save wearing it for another day than show off my than just my legs, afterall we're just going to the dollar store, not out any place nice. Oh, hit up HEB also, I needed hot dog buns, going to be having chili dogs for dinner.
Oh, a surprise I nearly forgot to create a paragraph for, while at Dollar Tree, mom and I were waiting in line and somehow with our connected brains we both were looking over at the balloons and were thinking the same thing, wouldn't Snickers love to have a balloon? I told her, go ahead, pick one out, she did, a red star shape one. I told her once home that I would go in first, turn on my laptop, start up the webcam and begin recording, then she'd come in after with a surprise for her little girl. She was surprised, and oh so smart, adorable and loud, yeah, that's my doggie. Oh, and my momma's in this one, I only get cameo and narratives.
6:50pm
Fifth pill (second for today). Took it, starting cooking dinner, and while I was feeling fine otherwise here comes that numbing pressing feeling again on my face, this time a little higher up on right cheekbone running along edge of the eye socket. I ignored it, continued cooking, ate dinner, but it still persisted, so then took Snickers out to use the bathroom, a few minutes out there and I started to have a strange tightening, twitching sensation along bottom edge and sides of my right eye, so I promptly brought Snickers home without her doing anything. If this is an anxiety symptom, I find it kind of odd that its the same place on my face, and very specific. But I feel really good, my mood has been much improved, not experiencing anything else like I had the first day I took it. Maybe I should just take one a day? Two might be too much?
I didn't get but 4 hours of sleep before I had to wake for work this morning so I had been really tired all day, stretching earlier helped wake me up a little bit but now, combined with the stress about the feeling on my face I had to lay down, take a short nap, so mom was in bed and told me to come lay down beside her, we could just talk. So we did. She was telling me about different things, I in turn about some of my friends on here, and at one point we were talking about my sister and I was getting all choked up over it, that she never accepted me and how so much I had wished that we could be sisters, so much we could've done together. Yeah, I was getting all emotional, a little teary-eyed, but this time not frustration over myself, nope this was my girly emotions emerging. Then my mom was telling me about one of my sister's sons, how he kind of has this girlfriend, though not really in that way, how it seems that he's a late bloomer (girls aren't really interesting him all that much right now), and I related that to how I was, heck my interest in anyone didn't hit until some months ago, how now that I'm getting older I'm wanting someone in my life to be close to, and actually liking the idea of intimacy, its like now, after all those years my sex drive just kicked in, not just the unwanted need to get off. She said that's how it is with women, men are at their peak early in life, women tend to be more so at around my age now. Guess that means I'm a woman.
We didn't end up sleeping, but I guess even just laying down is rest enough, may as well get up and do something. We had laundry to do anyway. I got on the internet for a little bit, then helped her carry the clothes over. The weird numb feeling along my cheek was still there but not so much, mostly now with the bit of tears I shed earlier I had a headache. Decided to reupload some of my videos to Youtube again, plus a new one. Eating a bowl of fruit, headache's gone, cheek still feels weird, but I'm okay.
Oh, made a whole pot full of that spearmint tea late at night, enough to fill up a pitcher so I can have it readily available for drinking without going through some whole boiling and brewing process. Still taste bland and nasty, but its better cold. I suppose I could add something to sweeten it up, eh, no big deal, drink down a glass real quick, hope it plays a supportive role in my hormone therapy.
