I don't know if it would be selfish, or if it would be too much to ask to any of you, or whatever. But things with my parents have been rough, because they are unnacepting that I am transgendered. Sometimes it seens it will get better, but today my father had a fit over me wearing a female watch and necklace at dinner. Things were fine, and they weren't minding if I was wearing female attire in our home, but as I took my seat and began eating, they began giving me odd looks and my dad said something negative,a brazilian slang meaning something is bad, and my mother keep staring at me.
As I went to the kitchen to grab water, she went after me and gave me a speech on good manners and stuff. Later on she came to my bedroom and said many random nasty things about my transition, explaining I should never wear that necklace or that watch to our table and I should never challenge my father in such a manner again. I did nothing, absolutely nothing, unpolite or challening to any of them during our time at dinner. Considering they were being accepting before, all this reaction over a watch and a necklace is out of the blue, yes, and it scares me as well.
I am fairly out of options currently because I am going to graduate from medic school this year. They hold the money, I have to submit or they cut it and I will be one of the many TG women in Brazil who were disowned or something alike. Also don't take this wrong, I don't want to just graduate and vanish, I want to keep my parents because I love them, but I'm trying to steer them in a path of love instead of hate, while managing my transition.
So, please, if you can, pray for them? Anything to warm their hearts. Their names are Monique and Dirceu and I really would appreciate any amount of prayers sent towards them.
