I Hate My Life Sometimes...

[K Style Addiction]

My depression is hitting me hard again, listening to fade into you and feeling worse but better at the same time. Weird huh? I had a sucsessful trip passing (with help from someone you know who you are and much luv ). Sometimes i feel ugly , i don't know why but that is something that bothers me the most. I don't care about anything else except this want to be pretty which sometimes i feel i am (again with thanks to the people here who have been incredibly sweet) and sometimes i feel the opposite. I don't know, i've been on the same med's and i always come to a point where i feel like crap and everything feels so pointless and worthless, like nothing really matters, ugh...another DonnaTroy rant, just another silly person on this planet lol.

[JenJen2011]

Girl..you are GORGEOUS! But what I tell you doesn't really matter because it's not what you see. Just like when people use to tell me the same thing, I just didn't see it. I hope you feel better soon.

[Jamie D]

My depression is hitting me hard again, listening to fade into you and feeling worse but better at the same time. Weird huh? I had a sucsessful trip passing (with help from someone you know who you are and much luv ). Sometimes i feel ugly , i don't know why but that is something that bothers me the most. I don't care about anything else except this want to be pretty which sometimes i feel i am (again with thanks to the people here who have been incredibly sweet) and sometimes i feel the opposite. I don't know, i've been on the same med's and i always come to a point where i feel like crap and everything feels so pointless and worthless, like nothing really matters, ugh...another DonnaTroy rant, just another silly person on this planet lol.

Number one: you're not ugly!

Number two: the reason you had a "successful trip passing" is that you look feminine.  I envy you.

Number three: many people, genetic females and males alike, have issues regarding their appearance.  I blame it, in part, on tv and print media advertising.  Jeez, I just read the Sports Illustrated swimsuit edition in the airport and almost cried.  I just had to remind myself these are not typical women, and I wont ever be a swimsuit model!  With that said, there is a lot I can do, and anyone else can do, to improve on one's presentation - and the first thing is having a positive attitude.

Number four: do you have a close, understanding group of friends in Singapore?  I don't recall if you ever said you were a student or were employed there.  I do know, that in years past, there was a pretty tight ex-pat community there.  Get out and socialize girl!

[K Style Addiction]

Number one: you're not ugly!

Really, so am i pretty ? also thanks JenJen.

Number four: do you have a close, understanding group of friends in Singapore?  I don't recall if you ever said you were a student or were employed there.  I do know, that in years past, there was a pretty tight ex-pat community there.  Get out and socialize girl!

I wouldn't have a clue, i still feel like a man in a dress outside of the house prolly because the majority of singaporeans are short and i'm 5'11, inside my house i feel like a lady as one could feel. My mom works here, i'm just tagging along with a PR, i don't socialize as i'm too shy and i'm all alone...really get's lonely sometimes .

[Jamie D]

I understand your concern about standing out in a crowd.  I once worked for a company that had an office in Kuala Lumpur.  Our American  employees who lived there were encouraged to be active in the ex-pat community, which broadly included Brits and Australians too.

As long as you isolate yourself you are going to be prone to bouts of depression.  Humans are, by nature, a social animal.

As I recall, Singapore is a somewhat uptight society.  Are there potential problems with trangenderism there?  Is there any sort of TG community?

[Cindy]

Hi Donna,

You are very feminine. Don't be put off by your height. Although you maybe tall for a Singapore woman, you are not that tall. Use your height to your advantage.  I bet you have long gorgeous legs. Go show them off. A nice short skirt and even a low heel to make them even longer and you'll have every guy in the street drooling. And every woman envious.

Join some social clubs, that is a nice way to meet people. Maybe try cooking classes or dress making classes. You will have friends in no time, and then you will feel a lot better.

And I think as soon as you gain some confidence and start going out you will have guys hitting on to you in no time, and there is nothing like having a couple of guys interested to give a girl confidence.

Enjoy life Donna

Hugs

Cindy

[K Style Addiction]

There is a tg community and depending on the place you go singaporeans can be uptight or nice or have a "whatever" attitude, to be fair. Everybody on this forum have said i pass, so i maybe do but it's just how i feel...out of place being so tall in a place where everybody is so short. Like i said i just live with my mom, i don't take part in any social activities i'm just the kid, like you said sometimes i look at pictures at beautiful women and feel like "well i'm screwed"...i really don't know if i'm pretty or not. Most people here tell me i'm pretty and at worst someone said i was cute but my mind doesn't beleive it, i dunno why.

You are very feminine. Don't be put off by your height. Although you maybe tall for a Singapore woman, you are not that tall. Use your height to your advantage.  I bet you have long gorgeous legs. Go show them off. A nice short skirt and even a low heel to make them even longer and you'll have every guy in the street drooling. And every woman envious.

I don't have the guts to dress like that so far lol, but maybe i'll try . Stacy Keibler (George Clooney's current gf) use to be a sort of hero to me because she's my height and guys love her.

Join some social clubs, that is a nice way to meet people. Maybe try cooking classes or dress making classes. You will have friends in no time, and then you will feel a lot better.

I don't know, i usually so afraid that i get so quiet and don't communicate well with people (cause of shyness), they find me arrogant and think i'm a bitch. Do you girls really think i'm pretty?.

[lilacwoman]

if that photos really is you you're only problem is accepting you're a woman and the only way to do that is to get out into places other woemn go to and  just enjoy being one...scary and depressing at first but suddenly its ok.
stop looking at other people to see if they are looking at you and let everyone see a lovely young woman and thats how most will accept you.
go enjoy yourself

[Cindy]

You are very good looking.

Nothing happens by magic. We have to 'cast the spells'; look at the models in the magazines etc. They have a height minimum of 6 foot. Then they wear 6 inch heels. They are also impossibly skinny but forget that because most guys want woman with curves. You are tall and have curves to die for. I think if George Clooney saw you he would be on the phone!!

We are our worst enemies. Woman put themselves down all the time. I remember Roger Vadim, who was at different times married to Bridgette Bardot and then Jane Fonder, two of the most sexiest woman of their time, saying that they were terrified of leaving the house in case they didn't look good. There wasn't a man or woman or would not drool over them if they were wearing a hoodie and Ugg boots.

You don't have the guts to walk through a shopping mall area wearing a short skirt and low heels?  After the first 30 seconds you will love it. Walk into a clothes shop and the assistants will be on you immediately. They can recognise beauty and know what it does for their store. Buy yourself a coffee and sit, and don't be amazed if guys ask if they can join you. This might sound odd but start to enjoy your sexuality, your gender, your appearance. Small steps, go to a big store and try different perfumes until you find one you like. Why? Because we can. Ask for a make-over, tell the girl that you want a new look for night and day. Why? You'll never be able to recreate the look but it feels totally awesome. You feel like a very special woman. And that is so important. Because we are very special.

You are shy. Join the club.
The reason many people join social clubs is that they are shy and they have no friends. That is what social clubs are for. You are often asked to introduce your self at such clubs, and guess what you do?  Hi my name is Donna, and I'm extremely shy but I do want to make friends. Sorry if I struggle sometimes to talk, it is my shyness.

Guess what?

You have a room full of friends.

Donna if I had your looks I would be ecstatic. You are are VERY good looking woman.

Small steps and report in so the girls can help out.

Hugs Sis

Cindy

[justmeinoz]

I'll repeat what the girls here have all said.  You look very pretty, and have nothing to worry about in the looks department.  Listen to Cindy, she knows what she is talking about.  I was a bit shy too, but now I just smile and say hello, and it's great. 
Social clubs and things like cooking classes are a good way to go, and you have so many styles of cooking over there, you can meet a lot of new friends, without the pressure of having to talk all the time.

Have fun, and treat yourself as an honoured guest in your own life. 

Karen.

[Jamie D]

And remember Donna ...

SMILE

[K Style Addiction]

Thank you all !