I decided to let myself go while the parents went shopping. I'm not going out tonigt because i have work first thing in the morning and i really wish i could just go and have some fun - but i've already cancelled.
SO.... I threw my clothes on the floor, stuck on some 'feminine' (gender neutral) clothes, my binder, my 4" platform goth boots, some make-up, found out all that choccy i been eating has gone straight to my fingers as most of my goth rings dont fit anymore

and put some electric blue nail polish on!!!
It felt so good! And i soooooooooo wish i was going out tonight cos thats what i would have gone out in!!
And plus i dont seem to pass as a guy that very well lately and people will prob just see me as some kind of butch lesbian. Thats my latest battle with myself these days >_>
Oh well. One day i'll have a real flat chest and i can show it off to the world and then look femme... I sometimes wonder if i'm just a male ->-bleeped-<- trapt in this female body

I have to laugh at myself sometimes >_>