Hello everyone. I blog on my YouTube alot but after reading so many wonderful stories, I feel like sharing some more about me. Up until recently Ive felt confused. Theres alot to my story but I will write more about that on a later date. I wanna fast foward to 2012 because of the significance of how I feel like it was a turning point in my life.
Ive always felt like a girl and Ive fought it forever but Ive always dressed at home from time to time. My birthday was January 4th and Id always wanted my eyebrows done kinda girly so i wanted to get them waxed. I was too nervous and scared to go to a salon so I bought a home waxing kit and my neighbor/friend waxed them for me. I liked the outcome but when I got back home, I plucked them... and plucked them... and plucked them until there were cute, thing feminine arches. I loved them and how pretty they looked!
The only problem was as a guy, it made me look super gay! (Which I am gay - closet case!)
Well, it made me nervous to go to work the next day, so I called in sick. I ended up just shaving them off.
Something in me shattered.
I was so upset with myself. I was ashamed of myself. Not because I waxed my eyebrows. Not because I shaved them off. I mean they would grow back. I was upset with myself because I had let fear control me. I was being myself and I was happy but I let the fear of what people would say or think change that.
I had to re-evaluate myself. I cried myself to sleep that nite.
Everything seems so clear to me now. Charity is who I want to be. I have embraced this since that moment. I felt reborn.
Since then, I have came out to many people and I have got nothing but support. Ive even shared this with my parents. They both accept me. My mom has been a huge help. I've even gone out to the local gay club and was welcomed with warm embrace. I have alot of Facebook friends that go there and have recognized me. I kinda felt popular.
I feel like Ive come such a long ways since January but Im taking small steps (even though some feel huge!) I would like to be full time one day. I'll get there!
Like I said, there's more to my story. But for now, Thiss is me. Charity Heart!
