Plz Help Me if you can...

[ixt2003]

Hi there, I'm at anti-adrogens at 3 weeks now and in a few days I will uses eastrogens (by a doctor,of course) I really hate my hair in the body,in the face i feel all the time very miserable about it (I don't want others to feel that i'm a man etc)but. i'm afraid of the hormones.My psychiatrist said that if I wasn't a transsexual they would'nt bother to give me hormones.I just feel that fear -because it's just losing a part of my self.But generally I do;nt know where I belong,I know I feel like a woman but in the mirror I see a boy and when i think losing this image of the boy is like losing someone I have known for so many years!!!It's very difficult to explain,but on the other hand I feel very bad about my body... I just thnik that maybe I can cure my gender dysphoria?I sometimes try to think "gay" but it just does'nt work!Maybe the hormones will put me in the right place by the moment I have diagnosed as a transsexual??

Sorry for the bad english but I;m from Greece!!!
Any answer is welcome,even sort.

[KarenLyn]

I'm not a professional, but my advice is: If you're unsure what you want, wait. Wait until you are sure of what you want to do, then do it. If you don't  like how your psychiatrist takes care of you, find someone else. If you don't want to take hormones, you don't have to. If you want to be rid of your hair, you can have your facial and body hair removed with electrolysis or laser treatments.
These are my humble opinions. You should seek expert counselling before going on.

Karen Lyn

[tinkerbell]

Hello Ixt2003;

Are you under the care of a gender therapist?  Even if a diagnosis for transsexualism has been made, it is your choice to start or never begin hormones.  If you are not sure of your transsexuality, beginning HRT is one of the worst things you can do to yourself.  Try to be as honest as you can with your gender therapist or the doctor who is currently treating you.  If you're not receiving the kind of support you obviously need, find someone else who can help you.  Good luck and keep us posted if you can.

tink

[ixt2003]

Thnks for your replies,basically the probelm is that I really feel very bad/sad/mad/miserable being a man and others seing me as a boy)I sometimes feel-would like to have female genitalia etc,I ca'nt touch my body because my hair is still growinh male  but the real problem is that i think i have felt in love the boy  in the mirrror i used to see all this years,the guy i was trying to be!!!!it is real mess,but there is an explaination for this,imagine some fetichist transvestites for example who imagine themeselves as a woman and crossdress but the DON"T feel like a woman and they are heterosexual,it's something like that and i have to fight it!.So I think I should take the hormones because I feel that dysphoria almost 5 years now,I have suicidal things and I don't think I will get worse,If something goes wrong I will tell my doctor to stop hormones but I think they will put me in the right place!!!!!!!Thnk you very much!