I would tend to suggest that you change countries. But that's just me. If you ask me, the дебилs are themselves if they treat people as you say.
Certainly, there are psychologists or something for depressed people, are there?
If not, I'm sure you can search online for a therapist in another country who does online Skype sessions. I think there are even a few gender therapists who do this.
Anyway, back to your question, yes, these thoughts are normal... in a depressive, suicidary person who needs swift treatment. You need to speak of your problems and get help, be it from a professional, family member or friend.
Devlyn: She was quoting what people would tell her. It's by far the least offensive way to use the term. Actually, I can't even think of a way it could be unappropriate. Either you misunderstood, either... No, actually, you must have misunderstood.