So about a year ago (maybe 10 months) I decided to pop my mom an email while she was at work (never send your parents personal emails when they are at work).
QuoteHello Mom
I've tried to gain the courage (That trans special thing that Global News had kinda pushed me to do it) to tell you in person many times but each time I got major anxiety which makes my stomach feel really gross. So I figured it might be easier to tell you via email or something because that way I can just write it all out and such.
I am transgender and I have known since I was 14 years old but have always been too afraid to say anything to you or Dad. I was going to tell you on Friday but I didn't want to ruin our trip or anything by adding any drama.
So I'm still like the same person though, I like girls still and I have no idea what's going through your head right now but I can assure you that I am not joking nor have I gone crazy and I am writing this like straight from my heart.
I love you and I want to talk to you about this calmly when you get home.
To fill anyone in on some of the content of the email, Global is a TV station here in BC (and most provinces) and they had been having a week long special report on trans related issues. Friday thing was just a weekend trip to a close WA town.
Later when she came home for work he had a conversation which was awkward to say the least. Pretty much I tried to open up to here but I was still really scared and she started asking me if I had body issues and if I cross dress. She brought up that if I do cross dress that she doesn't want to come home and see me doing it and how she wanted to have grandchildren. By the end of our little talk which seemed to end with me assuring here that I didn't cross dress and her just thinking that I prob had body issues because in her mind I didn't think I was masculine enough and therefore was confused and just gave myself that label not thinking otherwise.
A few weeks later I was using her iPhone to browse the web and when I was opening a new tab I found that she had one on the wikipedia page for transgender. That's when I realized I had made the mistake of using transgender which is an umbrella term instead of transsexual because I had thought that she would know exactly what I would mean by saying transgender.
And now almost a year later I've been thinking of ways to come out in the next few months after I'm 19 and able to go to the doctors and get prescribed to things without needing a parent/guardian.
Does anyone have any advice for this? I'm hoping that maybe somehow my original coming out could make here less shocked about me but that's wishful thinking on my part. Also would it be easier to come out to my family all at the same time? (slightly old school dad & 21 year old sister/her BF who lives with us) Coming out for me is something that seems scarier than the thought of getting chased by a bear. At least a bear you have a chance of outrunning it and never having to deal with that bear again. You can't exactly outrun your parents & sister when after starting hormones you start to look quite a lot more feminine than before.
*Family member* "Why Jordan, you're looking a lot different today than you did in this picture I happens to have of you right at this min.
*me* Well umm... it's the lighting!
