Got it into my head to tell my mum while i am staying with her for the weekend.
Dressed up in all my clothes etc, thinking it would help me explain, and waited for her to pick me up. Nervous as hell because my mum is a loud, opinionated lady. I love her to bits, but she's not easy to talk to.
First thing that happens when she pulls up, "Holy geezus [real name]. You look terrible! What, are you a butch lesbian now?"
Gotta say, i know she meant it as a joke, but i was not prepared for that. Crushed my confidence into pieces and now (night time) I've yet to recover. I'm a coward by nature when it comes to confronting people. I dislike conflict to an extreme.
She spent the whole trip home trying to drive to clothing stores to buy me something 'nicer' to wear. Though she hesitated at each turn off... maybe she sensed something was wrong.
Guess it won't be happening this weekend..