peace and love

[wuddy]

Hello to all I am wuddy 33years old musician record producer living in the south of France. I have known i am trans since i can remember. I had brief counselling at age 18 but bottled out because of the fear of being ostracized by family etc.
I come from a working class back ground very rough were the majority of people are racist ,homophobic .
I have been homeless for the past 4 years wandering the streets of Europe busking and singing with my guitar and two
dogs.

Many people say i have a real talent for music and i draw crowds in the street and at times i have made grown men cry at the emotions in my songs. Before being made homeless i ran a successful studio and organised techno party's etc. I suppose I'm an anarchist and have been politically active for human rights for years. I think it was my own gender issues that led me into realising how much hate exists in this world for minority groups. Eventually i took an overdose my recording studio was closed down and house was taken after the police smashed the door in and told me to cut my loses and leave without anything in the winter.  iwas made a scape goat for the powers that be an example to tow the line.  So i left the country

Whilst homeless i got heavily into drinking and just felt over whealmed at what had happend.
I then met the traveling artists painters musicians and they have been like a family to me since that day
I have managed to make enough money on the streets with my guitar to buy some more studio equipment and have just taken an apartment and pour a small studio together I have been making music on solar panels FREE energy
Although all my punk friends no i like wearing dresses etc and are OK with it none of them know how i really feel
I worry i have left it to late and have never in my life spoke with another transgendered person and feel this would really help.

I am not a victim and do not need sympathy but do need to be around other trans people and get this all out in the open

Its strange i have an extreme lack of confidence i don't like what i see in the mirror and i feel so different on the inside.
My transgender issues need sorting out as its effected my whole life self a steam
I feel stuck in France and although i can speak french i have no income and the government refuse to help me winter is hard and my health suffers.

I just want to get out of this situation and rebuild my life and be proud of being what i am it really does make me happy being feminine
FEAR holds us back and destroys our lives FEAR based society FEAR of your own identity and so on

I think we are living in amazing times and people are waking up to freedom and becoming more accepting of the differences in all individuals it would be pretty missarable if every one was the same like battery farmed chickens

I suppose all I'm trying to say is that anarchist don't fear true anarchy isn't about looking like a punk or destroying everything its about individualism respect love and acceptance/ so i am trying to bask in my individuality become who i am and live in peace and harmony with humanity as being positive creates positivity which makes for a better world live by example

I would love to chat to meet other transgendered people and stop feeling guilt for how i feel

sorry for the spelling and the rant peace and love x

[V M]

Hi Wuddy 

Welcome to Susan's    Sounds like quite an experience you've been through

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[wuddy]

  Thankyou for your kind worlds First contact I feel lighter already Thankyou

[Jamie D]

Hi wuddy.  Welcome from southern California.
I have visited Spain, but never up in the Pyrenees, or Andorra.
Looking forward to hearing more about you.

[wuddy]

hey,  nice to hear from you.I have friends out in California,  I often visit Andorra :duty free: Feels good to of Finlay made contact with some people that understand what it can be like feeling this way. Ive never in my life spoken to other trans people. not as scary as i thought  Like the statue on your profile

[Cindy]

Hi Wuddy,

Welcome from Adelaide South Australia.
Remember we are always here for a chat and a gossip, so there is never any reason to be alone anymore. Some one somewhere will be awake to talk.

Hugs
Cindy

[kelly_aus]

hi Wuddy,

A warm Aussie welcome to you! Sounds like quite a journey you've had..

Hugs,
Kelly

[Jamie D]

hey,  nice to hear from you.I have friends out in California,  I often visit Andorra :duty free: Feels good to of Finlay made contact with some people that understand what it can be like feeling this way. Ive never in my life spoken to other trans people. not as scary as i thought  Like the statue on your profile

Wuddy, when I began to seriously explore my genders, I knew no other transgendered individuals.  Finding the wonderful people here has been a lifeline.

The figure that is my avatar is the Greek mythological figure, Hermaphroditus.  The statue is currently at the Lady Lever Gallery in England.

My avatar represents my bigendered being; part male, part female.  In fact, it is a fair representation of what I actually looked like circa age 19.

[Cindy]

Wuddy, when I began to seriously explore my genders, I knew no other transgendered individuals.  Finding the wonderful people here has been a lifeline.

The figure that is my avatar is the Greek mythological figure, Hermaphroditus.  The statue is currently at the Lady Lever Gallery in England.

My avatar represents my bigendered being; part male, part female.  In fact, it is a fair representation of what I actually looked like circa age 19.

Hair style as well doll?

[Jamie D]

Hair style as well doll?

Artistic license. 

[justmeinoz]

Bonjour et bienvenue.
J'habite a Tasmanie, et j'etudie francaise a Universite premiere ans.
J'ai 58 ans, vous ne retard pas.  Votre anglaise c'est  bonne.

Karen.

[Devlyn]

Hi Wuddy, it's nice to meet you! We like meeting new friends here. Especially dog people! See you around, hugs, Devlyn

[gennee]

Hi Wuddy and welcome. You been through a lot but you have survived. This a good site with a diverse group of people.

[wuddy]

Thank you all for being so kind this is a really cool site and your all really nice people. Think its time to get this all out in the open.  Live in a really open minded hippy valley.  To be fare starting to think that the only person that's had a problem with my gender issues is me,  better out than in

[Jamie D]

I hope your journey going forward is pleasurable and fulfilling.