when the immortal becomes mortal

[dejan160]

I was just listening to a song I really love "My immortal" and I started crying. This song has always reminded me of my gender dysphoria. I just realized that my immortal is now mortal and indeed dead. What an amazing feeling. I just can't stop the tears. I hope this is not a pathetic topic

[peky]

tears of sympathy, tears of empathy, tears of hope...tears of joy for what cannot be stolen...

[JayKyle]

Wow thats great for you! Not the crying part but that you've been able to change. ^^

[Jeneva]

So much of that first album is able to be read as trans.  I know that she isn't and she is actually married to a man, but it was very powerful album for me.

Evanesce - Fallen if you aren't sure what we're talking about.

Not that Shannon and I are big fans or anything.  I really wish she had a tour close enough by.  We really can't leave the kids with her parents because our son has type 1 diabetes and her parents are clueless of how to manage his insulin (and most of my family doesn't acknowledge my existence anymore).



***edit***
I also forgot to mention that Shannon actually dreamed we went to one of her concerts last night.  It was a fairly weird dream, but that was a funny coincidence.

[Sephirah]

For those who haven't heard the track:

Evanescence - My Immortal

It's not a pathetic topic, hon. That track is very emotive and one of my favourites.

*hugs you*

[dejan160]

So much of that first album is able to be read as trans.  I know that she isn't and she is actually married to a man, but it was very powerful album for me.

Evanesce - Fallen if you aren't sure what we're talking about.

Not that Shannon and I are big fans or anything.  I really wish she had a tour close enough by.  We really can't leave the kids with her parents because our son has type 1 diabetes and her parents are clueless of how to manage his insulin (and most of my family doesn't acknowledge my existence anymore).



***edit***
I also forgot to mention that Shannon actually dreamed we went to one of her concerts last night.  It was a fairly weird dream, but that was a funny coincidence.

Nothing is a coincidence sweetie. I just can't stop the feeling of being an other person. I feel like a part of my life is over and well behind. Today I decided to sell my car and my house and buy new car and maybe a flat. The SRS just has a very powerful psychological impact on me.
And when it comes to family issues they are very hard. People and the family don't understand the transexuality and the transition. But remember they all are selfish and they want you to be in a certain way just because of selfish reasons. Why wouldn't you then be selfish and do what is the best for you.