I don't want additional surgeries. I don't want the pain, I don't want the risks, and I don't want the recovery time. I don't want to lose time from work, and I don't want to pay out more money (I will have to, even if the procedures are covered by insurance). I don't want to go through an entire process that could take a couple of years to complete. I worry about the results, and I am afraid of complications.
But I don't see any other alternative. At the very least, I would get meta and then save phallo for later, but if I'm sure I'm going to have phallo, I might as well just do that from the beginning.
Sometimes I wish I could be happy with what I have, but that ship has sailed. I'm in favor of phallo for myself because it's just what I have to do--at some point.