I really really want to come out. I hate not being seen as who I am.
But here's the thing: I am naturally very fluid in a lot of ways. People have a hard time dealing with what little fluidity they already know about. I've had many very hostile reactions just by existing (and no, I am not kidding. I really do mean that all I did was exist). Heck, they've hurt me for having a normal emotional range, never mind the weird stuff. How bad would it be if I told them about my shifting gender when they already have a hard time accepting my existence?
On the other hand, I really want the negative, harmful thoughts that are stuck in my head to go away. They won't do that if I continue to act like I have to hide. By hiding, I'm letting those people win and I can't accept that.
What should I do? How can I come out?
(As much as I would like to come out about the rest, I'm just talking about gender. I already know I have to hide the rest.)
