June 2012
Cute becky is pillok123
Since comPleating my assessment with the nhs Services I have moved to north London uk.
I moved in and the riots kicked off and people were being killed.
No one warned me it was like this here.
5hate crime references and one threat of being stabbed.
I have had 3 appointments at charing cross hospital for HRT
And on both appointments I was asked the same questions by both doctors in 6 months.
I have no idea what I'm going through or why.
I don't know if I'm wpath or Harry Benjamin style therapy .
After my second visit I still was not issued hormones.
My next appointment is months away and this is not good enough
As I have battled my way for 17 months and to still be told no is a liberty.
I got in touch with pals services and told them the situation.
From a report asking me about my past was done up and submitted to charing cross
For easy reading into 35 years into 12 pages is nothing at all.
75 mins X2 appointment times to ask me questions that was already
In the document was a piss take in my eyes.
They never told me why it was nesesery but to just play ball and go with the
Flow.
Sorry but that is not going to happen.
I am an individual who wants toknow what's going on and why.
Well I got nothing and I am still in the dark.
Pals said they are sorry if this is causing me destress with the long
Waiting times I am experiencing and sorry if the questions are repetitive and that
They do have my clinical interests at heart.
They are not going to issue hormones at this stage as I have some complex issues.
Ok...... Complex issues in 2x 75 min interviews with 2 seperate doctors and a basic
Document to conclude complex.
Sorry I don't buy that.
Having the most eventful life you can think of being half the way around the world
And qualified in some bizare Carear of out door adventure is not your average London job.
Being tall is never a good thing in this life as I stand out like a sore thumb.
Everyone knows who I am but I don't know who they are.
Frankly I don't want to know as I don't pry into other peoples lives.
The people who pry into mine get told where to go most if the time.
I went to charing to transition male to female.
The news papers and tabloids can go f*** it's self as most if what they publish is sh1t.
The reality is that being of a different plain is always a target.
If you have glasses you are Geggy or specy four eyes .
If you have braces on your teeth you get it.
Black , White. Straight or gay, tall short , skinny fat or anything.
The chances of being killed by aeroplanes flying into buildings or bus bombs
Or even a car crash is just as likely to happen than being killed being transgender.
Being black and a racist is giving you harmful time.
Do you say stop being black?
Some racists I have seen use sunbeds and have dark tans visiting country's he has being abusing.
I live in a world of professional idiots.
Everyone is a professional ... Or try to pass as one as they perfect the gift of the gab.
I am going to be me and live my life the way I choose to.
I have no time or intrest to listen to another word of your hipocracy .
My children will never be born to listen to your disrespect for each other and I shure won't
Be dictated to by an underground netwOrk of nasty criminal elmenttries.
No one has a say of what I do with my life.
If you employ me 9-5 then you pay my wage I do your grime.
That's my aaaaargh fir this page.
Hormones Please and cut the patronising crap. It won't wash with me hunny xxx
