because i have a date for my HRT therapy to start, ive noticed ...

[AlexanderReese]

ive been way more straight forward and courageous.

situation:
this guy at my girlfriends work constantly texts her and asks her to hang out. (after hitting on her and implying they should hang out when her and i were on a break)
this is obviously not the first time this has happened to me in a relationship, but normally i sit back, dont say anything and i hold all of my anger in. i dont know if its because i now am a step closer to HRT with my set doctor date or what, but, I confronted him saying it makes me uncomfortable and angry that he's doing it. ive always felt, "less masculine" than biologically born males so i dont stand up for myself. But  for some reason,  i felt like the man I know I am by speaking up and letting myself say it directly to him. not to my girlfriend, not to friends but directly to the person who angered me. i'm not saying its good to ya know, go off on people or anything but my self esteem, my masculine nature is really showing. and even though im still a bit upset, i feel SO much better.

my shyness is wearing off and i feel like im coming into me.

[Kreuzfidel]

Well done, mate!  This kind of confidence is what I believe demonstrates the psychological benefits of treatment - so many guys report feeling calmer, more mellow, confident, etc. - and while I'm sure there are hormonal reasons for this, I feel it's more to do with the weight of being untreated taken off your shoulders, if that makes sense.  Also congrats on being nearer to T!

[AlexanderReese]

Well done, mate!  This kind of confidence is what I believe demonstrates the psychological benefits of treatment - so many guys report feeling calmer, more mellow, confident, etc. - and while I'm sure there are hormonal reasons for this, I feel it's more to do with the weight of being untreated taken off your shoulders, if that makes sense.  Also congrats on being nearer to T!

Thank you Kreuzfidel!!
It's a great feeling, and I can't wait to start this reborn life.
The feelings/emotions are just different. But a great different.

[Mr. Tentacles]

And how'd he react? I'm dying to know.

I'm all too familiar with the insecurity that comes with dealing with other guys. Inability to confront them. It really sucks.

[AlexanderReese]

at first, he was trying to be a jerk and he said "yeah well that's your problem." then i found he quickly had not much to say with "yeah okay buddy. and yeah." i told my girlfriend i'd stop considering she DOES work with him. i wasn't trying to be a jerk about it, but i want my views put out there.
seemed real tough until i said "well, if it's my problem it will quickly become your problem. back the ->-bleeped-<- off"
the situation changed very intensely then. lol.

but it's whatever. i am constantly changing. it's okay to be yourself Mr. Tentacles. Ive been insecure for the last 5 years with other guys interferring in my relationships. Finally, one day you can't take it anymore. And you have to be the man you are outloud for the world to see.

[anibioman]

And how'd he react? I'm dying to know.

I'm all too familiar with the insecurity that comes with dealing with other guys. Inability to confront them. It really sucks.

well said also i really like your pic.

[Mr. Tentacles]

well said also i really like your pic.

Thanks! It seemed perfect.

seemed real tough until i said "well, if it's my problem it will quickly become your problem. back the ->-bleeped-<- off"

Good going, even if it made things a bit tense.
I've gained a bit of confidence with the deepening of my voice, but I remember this thing used to happen ALL the time. Guys who saw my relationships with women as lesbian relationships, so they felt like they could hit on my girlfriends as much as they wanted.
Usually I'd ask "How would you feel if some other guy was doing that around you?" and it would make them think a little.

You weren't being a jerk. You were drawing perfectly reasonably boundaries. I'm sure if some girl was hitting on you she'd understand. 

[AlexanderReese]

Thanks Anibioman! Yours as well! you look like one of my really good friends.! hhaa
and no problem mr. tentacles! just keep chuggin along! its really worth it.