Hi, I am brand new here. I Have a family. A grown daughter, a daughter in college and a son in high school. Last fall I put on makeup for the first time and thought I was a crossdresser. I got on a crossdresser forum and fairly quickly was kind of, "Uh oh, this is not me," and again "Uh oh. I think I would really like to be a girl." I was swept away by waves of beautiful wistful emotions. The thought that I was transgender seemed to explain alot. I had told my wife I was CD- almost no reaction. And then that I was transgender. Almost no reaction. I have spoken to my younger daughter. She says she loves me and wants me to be happy, and that of course it would be weird. I am in counseling. I obviously have raging gender identity issues. My question to my consellor is "Does my life suck because I want to be a woman or do I think I want to be a woman because my life sucks?" She feels my GID is real and says she would be surprised if I don't transition. Which I would love to do. I have some reservations. But as you all know, it is very compelling everyday to be surrounded by these other women and want to be like them. Also, this is a very new development in my life. Looking back, many things make sense now, or seem to. I won't rush into anything this serious. I want to see how I feel in another year. But come on, if it feels like this or even stronger down the road, it will be very hard to resist. I am very much at peace with it and am prepared for the consequences and inevitable losses. Time will tell. And I am pretty sure half measures would never be enough. Anyway, hi from Gina.
