Oh, I don't know. I was a very solitary child anyway. I mostly kept to myself and read books from a very early age. (I was reading at a fairly advanced level by first or second grade.) By the time I got to my teen years and junior high school, I had grown very close with my "posse" of girlfriends; there were 5 of us, me, Andi, Tammy, Debbie, and Alaine. We were inseparable for the 3 years of junior high. We hung out, listened to music, went to restaurants. The girls would often dress me up in their clothes; it was fun to us.
Things were difficult and relationships were distant in the house I grew up in. I grew up with a goal, a burning desire: to be a woman. I think that desire kept me focused as I moved into adulthood. My little sister had no focus, and she grew up to be a very young slut and a porn actress. Sometimes I think that I might have followed a similar path if I had been born cis-female.
I really like the woman I've grown up to be! I am very pleased with how my life has turned out.
Interestingly enough, with all of the fun I have these days playing with makeup, with my slender curvy body, my waist length pink, blue, purple, and black hair, and bangs to my eyelashes, my partner says that I look a lot like a Barbie Doll. She thinks that is why little girls are intrigued by and drawn to me everywhere I go. Whenever I see little girls, they just fixate on me; they are fascinated by me... they often stand and stare... I wish I knew what goes through their minds as they stare at me. My partner always says, "Little girls know a Barbie Doll when they see one." It just tickles me.
