Gah, i'm really getting tired of all these panic situations. Either i'm going to go gray by 26 or my heart will give out before then. But new worries abound...again.
Ok, from my picture it's become apparent my face is starting to look femme, and if I wear a tight shirt without a sportsbra it either looks like I need to work out more or, and more likely, I got the begginings of a chest.
Now, after 4 months and a near miss on the being out on the street, I got a job, problem is, the state of illinois seems to be a 'at will' state when it comes to firing people. Apparently it makes employers free to not have a reason to fire someone. Regardless of how long they work there they don't need to give a reason. This is according to one of my coworkers who probably has guessed something 'isn't quite right' about me.
However, my friend and supivisor is telling me not to worry, in fact, I would probably be considered almost normal compared to what they have to hear every day. Yes, this is true, some people can be downright scary with what they
don't know of their medical history. But on this front I get conflicting information as to who to tell and who not to. Even among my friends, none of which have made a big deal, (one even had already guessed correctly after telling her a little of my adventures from the military) are telling me that some of the others arn't the most trustworthy to tell. But all my friends all have been trying to assure me that i'm fine and not to worry, the boss might even encourage it.
But the big boss is former navy, as was the coworker who told me about this insane law in illinois. Even if my supivisor and friend is a former Army Ranger, military personell make me gittery after my discharge from the navy. Heck, the reason I got a honorable discharge is censored on my file, even erased most likely, so that I coudn't prove it even if I wanted to pursue it!
These men may be nice, may be
former military, but still...
However, the point is that in illinois it is supposed to be illigal to fire anyone due to being ts, it is officially in the lawbooks, and you have to pass a 90 day evaluation period. What is the point of these things if my boss could fire me on a whim? Even my last job gave me a reason, and uemployment denied me for this reason. My friend tells me it is a national standerd that you have to have a reason to fire someone after 90 days.
I can't hide this forever, but I can't survive another episode of what i've already been through. I don't want to clam up, but I am feeling very unsecure on so many levels right now, and a 6 hour round trip commute isn't helping my nerves.
Any advice, anything that yall know that might help me get the record straight?
