Hey everyone I just wanted to introduce myself. As my username shows I go by the name of Aaron ( even though it won't be my legal name for a long while
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So about myself I guess. Some people may remember me from last year when I joined, however I was very shy/quiet. I went by the username of Aaron and I had only just come out (kind of). I was young and many of you guys gave great advice so thanks for that, I appreciate it alot. However I didn't talk or mingle much on here because I felt less mature than everyone, being only in year 8
. Now I'm about to go into year 10 after the six week break, I live in the uk, and I decided that I want to get back in touch with people I can relate with
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Ill try not going to bore you with a long paragraph so Ill try to be short, however I already failed that plan
. But anyway I've known since I could barely walk/talk that I am a guy and I am trying to be accepted as a guy. I am lucky, because I have a wonderful family who accept me for who I am, even if they do get a little confused by some things
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But here is my problem I still live my day to day life as a girl
. This is going to get complicated... Basically i have a group of friends who don't mind me acting boyish and stuff, I mean there are some idiots who pick on me ,but thats a mixture of being masculine and also being much more intelligent than them
. I wear guys clothes, i always have, and wear a hat at the weekend. I pass basically all weekend until someone calls me by my birthname...
I feel like I am constantly doing a juggling act trying to look like a girl at high school and then trying my best to pass as a guy when at home/out. I just want to be me all the time without the constant fear of what other people think. I know it is impossible
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My parents bought me two binders and even ordered me a packer today, my mum is totally cool with me getting a haircut too which is awesome.
So to finish off a very very long post, do you guys think it would be best to just fully come out? Im sick of feeling fake and like I am acting to keep people happy. Also if I did come out do you think i should stand up to any bullies or would it be worth my while to move school and start afresh? You know, let people get to know me for who I truly am and not just that kid who wants to be a boy.
If anyone reads this or even replies Ill be more than grateful, whether you have useful advice or not.
