Took my first pills this morning, and was immediately hit by the significance. It's been a long road to this point. My resolve and motivation are as strong as ever, so the feeling was not fear, second guessing or doubt, but there was a moment staring at the two pills in my hand where the things I have learned and that I know conceptually and the things I've talked about working for and towards suddenly became the things I am doing.
I had a Keanu moment..."Whoa."
That just struck me pretty hard. Not in a bad way at all, but I just sat for a moment after taking the pills and felt the gravity, the weight of all of this, then I smiled and went about my day.
Sometimes I feel guilty, especially listening to some of the pain and trials that others have gone through, but a huge part of me cannot help but look at where I am going and the process of getting there as this absolutely amazing adventure filled with joyous discovery. One that unfolds in fascinating ways on a daily basis.
I am yammering, but the gist of it is that I started hrt today, and taking that one step further along my path felt really fantastic.
-Miki
