Well I guess i will tell my story probs sounds like alot of peoples. I am 26 everything is crazy with me right now in recover for drugs got clean, and still clean yays, on easter so working threw stuff now. I was drinking and druging sense i was 17 after i tired to kill myself. I came out to my parents about how i felt and that i hated being male and that i am transgender they didnt accept it, they have completly wrote me off at this point last time i saw them was Easter they locked the place i was staying. So i used drugs to fit in and be manly and hide myself and be a man grrr lol. so when i almost died, by all accounts i should be died the drs really have no reason for me to be alive, on easter from a od i had enough and got clean. With the work i was doing on myself, getting clean, all of the feelings that i have been hiding for years and been trying so hard to not let em not be true came out hard and fast like when my head got clear it was a o blank moment. So now for me to stay sane and sober i need to let the me out yays lol. I am still really having a hard time with everything and accept stuff, about my drug use, still alot of dark thoughts, and being transgender. My problem is that they place i am staying at my friend needs me to leave or she will lose her place, and so right now have no where to go. My AA sponser wants me to go to a half way house which I can see why with problems going on, but my two main issuse of that is all the halfway house i find are all male, and honestly like at this point i feel if i dont make strides to let the real me come out i will slip and relasp, and also i havent come out to sponser. So i guess the question i have is do yall think i should hold off on letting me out and focus on staying sober or try to find somewhere else to live?
I am sorry i dont know if this is the place for this post but i just really need someone else thoughts that has been in some what of the same spot of me.
