I had my first visit with my therapist yesterday. I was really, REALLY nervous! I think I may have had a small panic attack in the car before going in! Then I went in and it was nearly as bad as I thought it'd be. We didn't really dig to deep, but we did discuss my gender identity issues and the strain it has put on me, my wife, and our marriage. I think she was surprised by the amount of research I had done and how well prepared I was to deal with my situation. One tiny thing she said made me feel really good (as stupid and insignificant as it was). She asked if I go by Chris... for now. I dunno, just made me feel like I'm on my way, even if it's just tiny steps right now. On my way out, I realized that there was a transgender support group meeting directly below my therapist's office! It took three times going back and forth from my car until I built up the nerve to talk to the girls there. They were much older than me, but it was still nice to talk with someone who has dealt with a lot of the same things I have. Anyway, I felt really great afterwards. It was like the first time I had talked about my issues to someone that actually wants to help! Just thought I'd share with you all!
