Hi Emily ,
A big Aussie welcome to Susan's family. It's good of you to drop in and say "Hi". Hope you like it here, and you stay for a while.
There is a mountain of information, resources and friendship waiting for you here, you just need to jump in and start talking.
If you are looking for courage to start your "coming out' phase, may be worth checking in with a gender therapist who can help you with any issues that may be blocking your way. Just a thought any way.
Looking forward to hearing more of your story in time to come, but in the meantime, be safe, well and happy.
Lotsa huggs
Catherine