Hey Scarlett: Welcome. A couple of things...
You are not alone. You are never alone. Many of us have gone through or are going through similar experiences. So join the community, join local communities, and find friends and support wherever you can.
Be careful. Ideally, we all should be able to "be who we are" etc. BUT the world (especially where I live, in eastern europe) can be very very cold towards people like us. And by cold, I mean lethal. Be brave, but also be smart, and protect yourself at all times.
There are a number of gender disorders/states that may apply to you. That's okay. I started out male, my first experience was with a boy, then I fell for a girl, then more boys, then got married to a girl, just now I've had SRS surgery and am still with my lovely wife. Don't worry about who you are attracted to; that has little if anything to do with who you feel you are inside, male or female (or a combination of both, or neither.... that's okay too).
The best thing to weed out what you might be would be to talk to a gender counselor and if appropriate get on some female hormones. ALL of us here who have transitioned or have started to transition regret not starting sooner. The body is harder and harder to mold the older you get. Start hormones before male puberty, and you are indistinguishable from a girl physically growing up; start at age 50, and not much will change sadly. I started at age 32, and a lot changed very well, but nowhere near as much as had I started at 22, or best yet, 12. It is huge that your parents are accepting of being gay; maybe a good counselor can help them understand that this is no worse, just different. If you can get your parents onboard, they can help you out unimaginably. Otherwise, save your pennies, get a second job, because you'll need it.
Keep talking, keep sorting it out in your head. If you can't find others locally, keep posting here. We've all been there, done that, doing that, wanna do that, gotten through that.... you will too.
Good luck!
