What made you unhappy today? v2.0

[crazy at the coast]

My dinner was nice and tasty, even the dog loved it and then I just vurped...    *gags*

[Felix]

Can you find that at regular stores? Wal-mart or Walgreens maybe?

You can. It's labeled 5htp and will be sold by the same companies that sell SamE and st John's Wort and ginseng and vitamins and stuff. I don't think we have a Walmart but I've seen it at Rite Aid and Walgreens. I tried it for awhile before I had health insurance. I'd say it's worth a shot. Ebay's good too if you're careful about it.

What made me unhappy today was my daughter being very unsafe around fast cars and angry dogs. I need to just not take her out after dark on the weekends. The general public is a little too unpredictable then.

[Edge]

I should get around to calling my "friend" back, but I don't want to. She's said some rather insensitive things to me. I will talk to her about that, but I'm dreading it since she'll probably do what everyone else does and try to tell me I'm in the wrong. I'm not. Seriously, who tells someone they met in housing for abused people who they know was abused that they "don't know what it's like?" That was just the latest of things she's said to me. Maybe I'm overreacting, but I'm tired of the kind of selfishness she's displayed to me over the past few months.

[Johe]

You can. It's labeled 5htp and will be sold by the same companies that sell SamE and st John's Wort and ginseng and vitamins and stuff. I don't think we have a Walmart but I've seen it at Rite Aid and Walgreens. I tried it for awhile before I had health insurance. I'd say it's worth a shot. Ebay's good too if you're careful about it.

Thanks, Felix. I'll check it out next time I have the opportunity.

No point in adding another post, but just had a panic attack. Took several minutes, not to mention bawling, to actually calm down, but I am so -- so something. Frazzled, maybe. I don't know. I'm not sure how to even describe it. I have an interview tomorrow, and I'm not sure if I'll be able to make that in one piece. Not to mention, I have to start getting ready in three hours...I'm still not asleep. Another note, I have a friend who wants be to babysit her kids, which wouldn't be bad if it was the only reason she ever called me. It seems to be one thing after another, and I just don't want to put anymore effort into people. I can feel myself being pulled down.

Eh, I don't know. Didn't really have anyone to talk to, thought I'd post here.

[Felix]

Hope the interview isn't too badly affected by circumstances.

[kira21 ♡♡♡]

My scales. No,  I am not a fish,  lol.

[EmmaS]

Whenever I talk to my ex, she manages to make me feel like I'm the most horrible person in the world, it starts out friendly, but it's just a trap and I get hurt.

[Jayne]

I went to see my GP today & after 2 months they still haven't changed my name on my medical records, when I asked why they said I had to contact my PCT to have this done, the receptionist didn't look happy when I produced a printout of the guidelines that state clearly that if I take my deed poll into the GP they have to deal with it or I'm entitled to take civil action against them.
She claimed that someone would phone me today to clear this up, I've got a full signal on my phone & it hasn't rung yet.

I then asked if the request for funding for my electrolysis has been sent yet & she claimed they haven't received a letter from the GIC about this but my copy of the letter sent to them arrived early December.
I have explained that they are putting my transition at risk as I've been told I need to be full time by my next appointment & I now have no chance of that due to their incompetence.

I find it very suspicious that they deal with anything else quickly & efficiently but the two things relating to my transition have not been dealt with.

[Shantel]

Sounds like it's time to become the avalanche Jayne. You've had some tough times as of late, it seems that you can't afford to be the turtle. Must be nice getting free electrolysis though, we have to pay out a small fortune for it on this side of the pond!

[Jayne]

Sounds like it's time to become the avalanche Jayne. You've had some tough times as of late, it seems that you can't afford to be the turtle. Must be nice getting free electrolysis though, we have to pay out a small fortune for it on this side of the pond!

I've spent an hour in tears due to this, I spoke to the practice manager about these problems & he was less than helpful, I had checked with the gender clinic & they confirmed that they sent 2 copies of the letter asking for funding to be requested on the same day, one to me & one to the GP, the practice manager said "well of course they'll say that".
I informed him that I've been told I need to be full time by June for my next GIC appointment & this mistake on their part is putting that in serious jeopardy, I informed him that I'm being treated for depression & this worry is certainly not helping.

I then raised the point about my name change & asked why they have not changed my name, he said I have to write a statement about my reasons for a name change but all my research has said that I should only have to give them my deed poll & if they don't comply I am entitled to take civil action so he hung up on me.
After phoning relentlessly over the next 30 minutes he finally took my call but this time he tried to be polite & sort of helpful, probably because I informed him he was on speakerphone & I had a witness present. He couldn't give a satisfactory answer as to why they've had my deed poll for two months & have not contacted me about having to write a statement but had an answer within hours of me threatening civil action.
He still insists that I have to write a statement & that my deed poll is not enough, he gave me the address to write to, it's only a 15 minute walk away so I'll go down in person in the morning & have a word there, I will insist that they show me in writing why my deed poll isn't enough when all my research says otherwise. Then I'll go to the citizens advice bureau which is round the corner & see what they dig up.
If the CAB find that someones telling porkies then I'll find a higher authority within the NHS & complain like crazy about this practice as no-one should be treated like this.

You are right that getting electrolysis for free is good but I wish I could afford to go private because I'm sick of battling the pencil pushers

[Shantel]

I've spent an hour in tears due to this, I spoke to the practice manager about these problems & he was less than helpful, I had checked with the gender clinic & they confirmed that they sent 2 copies of the letter asking for funding to be requested on the same day, one to me & one to the GP, the practice manager said "well of course they'll say that".
I informed him that I've been told I need to be full time by June for my next GIC appointment & this mistake on their part is putting that in serious jeopardy, I informed him that I'm being treated for depression & this worry is certainly not helping.

I then raised the point about my name change & asked why they have not changed my name, he said I have to write a statement about my reasons for a name change but all my research has said that I should only have to give them my deed poll & if they don't comply I am entitled to take civil action so he hung up on me.
After phoning relentlessly over the next 30 minutes he finally took my call but this time he tried to be polite & sort of helpful, probably because I informed him he was on speakerphone & I had a witness present. He couldn't give a satisfactory answer as to why they've had my deed poll for two months & have not contacted me about having to write a statement but had an answer within hours of me threatening civil action.
He still insists that I have to write a statement & that my deed poll is not enough, he gave me the address to write to, it's only a 15 minute walk away so I'll go down in person in the morning & have a word there, I will insist that they show me in writing why my deed poll isn't enough when all my research says otherwise. Then I'll go to the citizens advice bureau which is round the corner & see what they dig up.
If the CAB find that someones telling porkies then I'll find a higher authority within the NHS & complain like crazy about this practice as no-one should be treated like this.

You are right that getting electrolysis for free is good but I wish I could afford to go private because I'm sick of battling the pencil pushers

Stick to your guns Jayne, you shouldn't have to endure this and have your anxiety buttons pushed continually by those who are indifferent to your transgender situation. It's just another form of veiled discrimination and shouldn't be happening. I have always told these types that although I can't possibly afford to sue the system that I can and will come after you personally and it will get costly for you. Just the thought that they might have to hire a lawyer out of their own pocket is terrifying to them. It always works for me.

[Edge]

Someone broke into my mailbox and opened my mail. Thankfully, they left the mail, but my mailbox is literally broken, the envelope was ripped, and the contents were no longer in it.

[Kevin Peña]

Thankfully, they left the mail, but my mailbox is literally broken, the envelope was ripped, and the contents were no longer in it.

Then they didn't leave the mail. They only left the envelopes.

[Heather]

Going to work in guy mode after an awesome morning of therapy and driving around town as the real me.

[Kevin Peña]

Heather, you're so pretty! What's stopping you from going to work en femme? 

[Edge]

Then they didn't leave the mail. They only left the envelopes.

Actually, they did leave the mail. It just wasn't in the envelopes.

[Heather]

Heather, you're so pretty! What's stopping you from going to work en femme? 

Thank you! I'm not out at work yet but I'm working on it.

[Kevin Peña]

Actually, they did leave the mail. It just wasn't in the envelopes.

Oh! That makes no sense. Why rip up someone's envelopes, break the mailbox, and then not take anything?

Thank you! I'm not out at work yet but I'm working on it.

I don't know how they didn't figure it out. I swear, when I saw your avatar, I thought you were one of those "Non-TGs" on the site. 

[Edge]

Oh! That makes no sense. Why rip up someone's envelopes, break the mailbox, and then not take anything?

I have no idea, but I don't like it.

[Heather]

I don't know how they didn't figure it out. I swear, when I saw your avatar, I thought you were one of those "Non-TGs" on the site. 

It's amazing what some makeup a smile and a iPhone camera can do. It's funny just this morning when I was putting on my makeup. I was on the verge of tears thinking I was ugly. Luckily I got over that I snapped that photo when I got back I was in a lot better mood. But trust me I am tg what's not in the photo is my muscle mass that I'm hoping hrt will take care of.