What made you unhappy today? v2.0

[TheLance]

Woke up sick, was gonna call in, decided against it, now everything at work keeps screwing up. Shoulda just called in.

[Tristan]

Today someone found out about my past. Another female and now sees me as make. That sucked. And then I noticed that guys tend to just want sex, we were talking about this when she was like your a man, how do you tell them something like that? Ugh... Those two things hurt my day. My little sister is getting married and I'm starting to worry if I can find someone who treat me even half as good as her man. I'm happy for her but I so envy her

[FTMDiaries]

Today someone found out about my past. Another female and now sees me as make. That sucked. And then I noticed that guys tend to just want sex, we were talking about this when she was like your a man, how do you tell them something like that? Ugh... Those two things hurt my day. My little sister is getting married and I'm starting to worry if I can find someone who treat me even half as good as her man. I'm happy for her but I so envy her

Ugh, what a sucky day. *Hugs*

[Tristan]

It's ok. Every day can't be good. Or week for that matter

[V M]

Today someone found out about my past. Another female and now sees me as make. That sucked. And then I noticed that guys tend to just want sex, we were talking about this when she was like your a man, how do you tell them something like that? Ugh... Those two things hurt my day. My little sister is getting married and I'm starting to worry if I can find someone who treat me even half as good as her man. I'm happy for her but I so envy her

That was messed up stuff for them to say

Hugs

[Tristan]

It's ok. I expect it sometimes from woman who feel they want out me back in my place. I just hate the comments and things like" I just knew you were to pretty to be a woman" or you fooled me. But it's ok. I will make sure I keep my head up and Dow what's right

[vegie271]

just being alive and realizing I signed a contract with my therapist that states I have to stay that way 

[Darkie]

The fact that because my ride fell through I don't think I can go to Animinneapolis because I've exhausted almost every possibility.  Which really bums me out.  Now I can't see my friends... Or go as a boy.  This was going to be one of the only times I get to be a boy..Now that doesn't get to happen either..

[big kim]

3 times today I've got soaking wet,twice fixing a broken shower and just spilled a glass of fruit juice on me.Oh well at least I smell nice!

[Naomi]

Gender Identity being added to anti-discrimination laws in a local county didn't even get mentioned on local television news and isn't even front page on the web for the local paper.

[Keaira]

I had hoped that maybe, just maybe, The head of Indiana's BMV would finally push my name change through. I was so wrong to even think that. I'm going back to bed.

[King Malachite]

The fact that because my ride fell through I don't think I can go to Animinneapolis because I've exhausted almost every possibility.  Which really bums me out.  Now I can't see my friends... Or go as a boy.  This was going to be one of the only times I get to be a boy..Now that doesn't get to happen either..

That sucks your ride fell through.  Maybe if you search on Craigslist you can find someone who is going too and catch a ride with them annd just help pay for gas.  I checked out that particular convention and it looks freaking awesome, especially the formal fantasy cosplay ballroom dancing and the raves and video games.


My father made me unhappy today.  I told him that I sold my Black Ops 2 for $30 and he starts asking about if I sold the old crusty cookbooks he gave me.  I told him I got no hits on it and he asked me how did I run it and I was honest, I said it wasn't in perfect condition and had a few minor tears and stains and one certain recipe was cut out of the book.

That's when my father ripped me a new one talking about I'm being too honest and how I should spin the add around and that he knows how to sell better than me and that I need to get my you know what up and stop sleeping and playing video games all day to go to some estate sales and yard sales to buy things and make a profit.  He couldn't even be happy I made $30.  Then he starts to bring in the race thing which I'd rather not get into.  He's just going on and on while a pot is burning in the kitchen and my mom is yelling at me because we both went to sleep while it was on even though I told her that I may not be awake to check on it but she's drunk so I should have expected her to not react.


I just want to meet my princess charming and just move the heck away from all of this.

*huggles tight* I miss you too hun. Stupid unbreakable glass!

Had to say that this has cheered me up some

[ZoeM]

Soooo many hoops to jump through to get a certified copy of my birth certificate (for name change in WI). "Where do you live? Where have you never lived? What is your father's first pet's middle name?" GAH

[FTMDiaries]

My daughters 'she'd' me left, right & centre this morning.

[Shantel]

I got a little depressed today when I saw a beautiful young transgirl at college today. She is in her first year and started hrt at 17 so she appears very natural.
In comparison to her I felt like a freak with this masculine body, deep voice and awkward social skills. I blamed myself for looking the way I do because I was too scared to go against my family and start hrt sooner. When I look at her I just don't know if it is wise to continue this transition knowing I will never be seen as a natural gifted woman like she is.

Don't beat up on yourself just because she had a head start, just be the best you can be and get over the fact that there will always be someone younger and prettier. You don't need to compete with anyone, just be yourself.

[King Malachite]

I was talking to my sister about the situation with my father yesterday and she referred to me as his daughter.  I felt like she placed a lot of ephasis on daughter because she won't accept that I'm trans.

[suzifrommd]

I'm going to be driving to the Philly Trans Health conference at the same time a monster storm is set to hit our area.

[Keaira]

I got a little depressed today when I saw a beautiful young transgirl at college today. She is in her first year and started hrt at 17 so she appears very natural.
In comparison to her I felt like a freak with this masculine body, deep voice and awkward social skills. I blamed myself for looking the way I do because I was too scared to go against my family and start hrt sooner. When I look at her I just don't know if it is wise to continue this transition knowing I will never be seen as a natural gifted woman like she is.

It can be depressing. Heck  there's a few women here I envy. But then I remember that, it's not a contest. And I have many attributes others would be envious of. We all have our challenges. We transition when we are ready for the biggest one, which is just simply learning to live and come off of auto pilot. For example, there is no doubt in my mind that I could have come out to my parents way back in elementary school and I would have been loved and treated as their Daughter. But I wasnt up to the challenge. I had to live a bit and make some tangible life choices to be sure that this was what I needed.
Of course some mistakes you keep paying for, lol. But I am strong. I've gone through some of the same trials as everyone here and some that, while they should be a walk in the park and have been for everyone, have been an absolute challenge to go through.

[Nero]

I got a little depressed today when I saw a beautiful young transgirl at college today. She is in her first year and started hrt at 17 so she appears very natural.
In comparison to her I felt like a freak with this masculine body, deep voice and awkward social skills. I blamed myself for looking the way I do because I was too scared to go against my family and start hrt sooner. When I look at her I just don't know if it is wise to continue this transition knowing I will never be seen as a natural gifted woman like she is.

Don't beat up on yourself just because she had a head start, just be the best you can be and get over the fact that there will always be someone younger and prettier. You don't need to compete with anyone, just be yourself.

This.
I know it's hard to stop comparing yourself to other people. But remember you are comparing your inner self to their outer selves. Her circumstances are no reflection on yours.
Once you start measuring yourself against other people, it never ends. If you had transitioned at her age, then you might be jealous of girls even younger or hotter or whatever.

We transition when we are ready for the biggest one, which is just simply learning to live and come off of auto pilot. For example, there is no doubt in my mind that I could have come out to my parents way back in elementary school and I would have been loved and treated as their Daughter. But I wasnt up to the challenge. I had to live a bit and make some tangible life choices to be sure that this was what I needed.
Of course some mistakes you keep paying for, lol. But I am strong. I've gone through some of the same trials as everyone here and some that, while they should be a walk in the park and have been for everyone, have been an absolute challenge to go through.

Exactly. And chronological age has little to do with when someone's ready or not. There are old and young souls.

[Tristan]

I got a little depressed today when I saw a beautiful young transgirl at college today. She is in her first year and started hrt at 17 so she appears very natural.
In comparison to her I felt like a freak with this masculine body, deep voice and awkward social skills. I blamed myself for looking the way I do because I was too scared to go against my family and start hrt sooner. When I look at her I just don't know if it is wise to continue this transition knowing I will never be seen as a natural gifted woman like she is.

Don't beat yourself up over it. Even if you told your parents who knows if they would have let you transition very young. Parents often say later on that they would have but in reality they wouldn't. At least your transitioning now