im dyin, guys. i got a therapist, at least the one at school...but i dont like therapists. i have few friends but nobody close. i dont like close friends. i got my gf but some things she jus cant help with, you kno...
dysphoria is killing me, its been soo bad lately. depression is killing me. im a good student generally but im failing classes with only a few months left in the semester. the only thing gettin me thru the days is rap music and knowin i love her more than anythin.
im jus at a loss. i shouldnt be failin. i jus cant do the work. i dont wanna be doin it. i get less than five hours a week at work bc the ppl hate me bc im trans and im desperately tryna find a new job and gettin no calls. got bills to pay and cant pay em at all with thirty bucks a week. can barely get gas to drive anywhere. my car is effin duct taped together...seriously
sorry this is a pity post and its not even the half of it, jus needed to say some of it, i guess. i lost my best friend at the beginnin of this year and its killin me, not lost like dead, but actually lost as in hes no longer my friend nor will he ever be...only long term friend i ever had really
yea whatever sorry dudes dont gotta read or reply if you dont want to, jus needed somewhere to write this and not tumblr
